what does this mean????

WHAT!

      I texted my dad early in the morning telling him hi,later that day i went to my cousins house to  hang out and to have fun.  it was getting dark and I didn't want to stay any longer so I told them bye and I started to walk home when I got there it was 8:12 and I texted my dad again ,I went to my room and got my pj's on I came out and I watch TV with my mom I texted my dad one more time and he didn't reply so I stop texting him and I went to my room to go to bed.The next morning I text my dad 

me:"good morning" 

( little note my mom and dad are divorced just letting u know)I went to get me some food and I watch my cartoons (Adventure Time). Its now 2:00 and no reply from my dad so I text him one more time 

me:"hey dad why are u not texting me u are making me scared" 

I wait for a minute, the minutes turn into hours and there is nothing and I'm getting scared my dad is diabetic type 1 which is the worse one from type 2. I look at the phone know its 4:30 and I texted my dad one more time just to see if he will but I'm losing hope and letting the worse get the best of me 

me:" hey its me your pooky are u okay dad"

 then I put the phone down waiting trying to not think of what might happen or already did happen, then I felt my lap buzz I reach down my pocket and I look at the phone its from my dad I hurry up and I look at the text 

dad:"hey baby girl sorry I haven't been talking to u I have been sick what have u been doing"

 me:" dad oh my god u had me worried are u feeling better me and bubby are having fun we played on the x box we miss u I cant wait till this summer to see u"

 dad:"me to when I get my money we are going to see the ocean u and bub since u guys haven't seen the ocean before and I'm going to by u new clothes and new stuff then one day when I get a house built u can live with me since u been wanting to"

 me:"yay I'm so happy I cant wait bubby said he doesn't know when he will go back to your house since he is having fun here" 

 dad:" its okay he can stay there then when he is done he can come back home. how is your sister and the baby I'm so excited to become a grandpa I'm going to hug him and give him a lot of kisses" 

me:" I bet u are dad lol everything is good up here  how is everything going up there?" 

 dad:"its been good Greg came over today but I told him I wasn't feeling well so he left well baby girl I'm going to go I need to check my sugar and I'm getting hungry I will talk to u later bye love u xoxoxo"

 me:" bye daddy love u to xoxo"

 A week has past and I didn't text dad because I was at a friends house having fun and I was staying the night there to I wrote dad a lot of letters and I was going to send them to him but I needed a stamp but I couldn't find one. When I got home I texted my dad 

me:"hey what are u doing I really miss u"

 I waited but no reply so I just went out side and I played around in the dirt I came back in since it was getting late and I texted my dad

 me:"well goodnight I love u"

 the next morning I didn't text my dad at all and all threw the day, I just laid around I didn't really feel happy. its been 2 weeks now and my dad hasn't texted me I came out of my room and I gave my moms phone back and I went to my room and I started crying,I don't know why but my stomach felt like something was wrong I stop playing my game and I went out of my room and into the living room.my brother was crying and my sister had the phone to her ear,  she was crying now my eyes are already red and my nose was already running I went back to my room and I thought MY DAD DIED ! and I put my game back in and I was like no he didn't maybe its someone else that like got hurt or something he is fine. I started playing my game and having fun and all of a sudden my mom comes in she shuts the door and she looks at me and tells me to shut off the music and the TV so I did she sits besides me and says

 mom:"your dad died" 

I look down at the floor and I said 

me:"I know" 

and I start crying my eyes out, the fuck up part my mom didn't even cry though she was married to him for 14 year (I think I may be wrong) but then my dad left her when I was 7 so he has been divorced for 7 years but the papers were not signed by my mom so they were still married just didn't live together and they  didn't love each other any more.