There are things I cannot say- dark, deep haunting me. I see them on replay struggling to sleep. Screaming in my head and pounding at my chest causing me to gasp for breath.
I space out when we're in the car or just casually laying down. Flashing images in my mind yet I can't bring myself to tell.
Things happened to me, you wouldn't understand, they never do...
It's always she had too much, her clothes, her eyes and they way she watched.
You're hand is loving yet scares me the same. It hurts you I know, but you can't see so you get angry with me. For all I know one day you'll leave, tired, bored and exhausted with me.
When your asleep is when it really hits
Like a air bag crushing my lungs
I'll continue to suffer silent for you. I hold us up the strength for us both
One day you'll know I'm weaker than I show
Dark, unforgiving nightmares torturing me. Begging to forget I know it can't be.
