Psychosis

Day Seven

I questioned my sanity. It had only been a week since I was abandoned and I saw myself doing the questionable. I was either crazy or determined to survive. I damaged my old notebook I was writing this down in with water throughout all the pages. My problems would start when I got sick from the food I ate well knowing it was bad but i had no choice. It was starve or eat. I Searched around me in a 360 angle along this road in the forest. I had been walking all day and all night for 2 days. There was nothing left in that small shack they left me in. I had to get some food. Some way. I wasn't sure what would kill me first starvation or the animals in this forest. I always heard from my mother that the radiation should have killed the animals. But it only made them stronger. It's hard to remember a time when dear didn't have black fur and didn't eat meat.

A time when Bunny's were cute and didn't hunt in packs. One thing that never changes throughout time is there is no animal more dangerous than man himself. I heard a brush in a bush near me.I jumped backwards immediately scared. A squirrel jumped out at me and my immediate reaction was to kick it. I know it sounds bad because they are so small but they are deadly. It went flying back into the bush and ran away. I watched it run near a tool shed 10 feet away from a collapsed in house. Most likely nothing good in the house but the tool shed would most likely have something to help. I must not have been paying attention enough knowing a squirrel just tried to jump me.

I had to walk to it. It was my only chance at getting food, water, or more time to get revenge on that squirrel. I walked into the forest nearing the house. I heard my stomach growl. I walked up to the shed door and smashed it open. I felt like I was going to fall over from excitement when I saw canned fruit on the wooden shelves. I ran to it which hurt me I was already having cramps from the 3 day starvation. There was a water bottle there too I drank it all.

I opened it with a kitchen knife that was on the counter. I am going to die of starvation. I dropped the can and let it hit the floor. The can had mold inside it. The only food I found in miles was bad. I felt the happiness I had seconds before get turned into grief. I looked around in this small tool shed to see a bow and arrow. There was some arrows in a quiver along with it so I grabbed them both I had no idea how to use one but I would have to find out. Was this a Sign? A sign I needed to survive. My once acquaintance Curtis once told me things happen by choice not chance.

I knew A stupid finding of a bow and arrow probably wasn't a miracle but it gave me hope that if i survived throughout this starvation that I could get my own food without relying on already canned food from before the collapse. I felt my stomach feel like it was being ripped out. That was the pain of feeling starved.

I looked over at the bow and arrow along with the arrows. I could wait for an animal but my constant stomach noises and no experience with a bow I doubt that would get me by. I looked down at those canned peaches I had dropped earlier. They were moldy and were probably radioactive. I picked up the can debating if it was worth it. I got hit with more stomach pain which practically made me eat them.

I put the moldy peaches into my mouth and gagged. It was the worst thing I have ever tasted. It was dry and the mold felt like fur or carpet being put into my mouth. I thought I was going to puke. I ate another and I considered just dying then this. I put in another and I puked in my mouth but I had to swallow it back down because I couldn't spare losing any fluids or food. It was disgusting. I ate 3 more at a time. I ate 5 more and I felt a tear go down my face. Was this how far I would go to to stay alive? Was the world throwing obstacles in my way to challenge me or to show me to give up?

I dropped the can and wiped my mouth. All I could taste was vomit. I fell backwards out of the tool shed. And puked all over the ground and my shirt. I looked down at myself disgusted and disappointed. My old self used to just scavenge for some jerks I never got to know just so I wouldn't be alone, And here I am alone. I pushed myself up and walked towards the house that had its roof collapsed in.

I walked in and wiped my blue shirt off on the blinds. I walked towards a teenagers room. I wanted to go towards the kitchen which was across from the living room but of course the bedroom was the only thing that was accessible with the roof being collapsed in. I walked in and this kid had a strange love for black. I opened his closet. There was a lot of clothes. I was used to this though nobody wants to take teenager clothes because most people alive were adults.

It was all black jeans and white T shirts.But at the very end there was a Skinny Black hoodie. I put on the clothes so I was now in a black hoodie with a white undershirt and black jeans. This kid has a special love for black including the bow and arrow and arrows which were all black. I hated black but it blended in with a lot of things with all the decay and when it's night time. I looked outside and it was turning night time. I walked over to his calendar and marked off my birthday, December 12th 2051.

His bed was looking really comfortable right now. I decided I was going to go to bed and I felt like things couldn't get any worse.

I walked up and pulled the blanket off the bed and a squirrel jumped straight at me. I fell backwards and it scratched my chest. I picked that bow and arrow up off the floor and smacked the squirrel across the room with it. The squirrel hit the wall and started running towards the doorway but i kicked it back into the room and threw it out the window. I kicked the wall and screamed words preferably the ones that start with F. I heard a loud growl from a far.

I don't know what animal it was but i was already out the door running. I settled down for too long and I would make that mistake never again. I heard rustling behind me and I jumped up into a tree climbing as fast as I could I got ten feet higher and the animal smashed straight through the tree. I fell back with the tree and smashed against the forest floor and everything went black.