The Playgirl Is Resigning

CHAPTER 5: So not worth it

"WHAT THE HELL!" Bulyaw ko nang makabawi na sa mga nangyari. Mabuti na lamang at nakalabas na kami ng Library.

Marahas kong binawi ang ang aking mga braso. Pinaulanan ko ng aking mga nanlilisik na mga mata ang kinaroroonan ng mga walang kwenta kong dalawang kaibigan. Tangina kinaladkad lang naman nila ako palabas ng library. Nakakainis.

Nababanas ako. Parang may kung anong namumuo sa kasukasuan ko. I wanna wreck this place right now because of a damn hypertension. Tumaas na nga ang alta presyon ko sa walanghiyang nerd na yon tapos dinagdagan pa ng mga walanghiya kong mga kaibigan.

Oh jeez! I think I need water- A very fucking cold water.

Pinaypayan ko ang sarili gamit ang aking kaliwang kamay. Pinakalma ko muna ang kumukulong dugo ko at tumalikod saglit. As if the small air I got from fanning could freaking ease the bloody heat of irritation that is boiling inside me.

Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago paman ako sumabog rito at mabigwasan ko ang dalawang ito.

Mas lalo namang kumulo ang dugo dahil hindi man lamang ako pinansin ng mga ito. Instead of begging and apologizing these bitches are busy on something. Pasilip-silip parin sila sa loob ng library.

Napapikit ako ng maraan. Kunti nalang talaga at wawasakin ko na ang putanginang pinto na iyan. I am not kidding. I'm gonna wreck the hell out of that goddamn glass door.

"Tangina ang gwapo."

"I can't believe that it was him. He's so hot."

Para namang may bell na kung ano ang tumunog sa talinga ko.

Gwapo?

Hot?

Ha! Akala talaga ng dawalang to madadala ako sa mga pang uuto nila sa akin. Over my dead body. I've seen countless gorgeous men with all those tight muscles and well defined abs. I'm not just a supermodel for nothing. Isama mo pa ang mga kapatid at mga pinsan ko na halos sambahin at ialay na ang mga katawan ng mga babaeng nagkakandarapa sa kanila. Models, Celebrities, Bachelors, Basketball Players, Heartthrobs, Singers, Idols, Rich guys- name it. It's a very fucking long list. Handsome and hot guys aren't new to me. So not me girls. I am not buying this.

And besides, I filtered out the guys with the most handsome, hot and oozing with sex appeal in the whole campus just to be my fling.

Matingnan di nga kung sino itong poncio pilatong pinagdidiskitahan ng mga to. Maybe a transferee or a freshman perhaps?

"Saan ba diyan?" Nakiusyuso narin ako at sumali narin sa kahibangan ng dalawa.

Let me clear this. I'm not fucking interested, I just want to know if he'll pass to be my next target, okay? It's just for a piece of information. "Fuck it guys. Pakituro nga saan yung guy. Dammit." Nakanguso kong reklamo. Naningkit na ang mga mata ko pero wala talaga akong makita. "Tara pasukin natin ulit?" I suggested while grinning at them.

And now that everything sinked in. Nagmukha kaming stalker. One of the word, that is not included in my damn personal vocabulary.

I even saw some students in the hallway curiously and weirdly looking at us. Napatayo naman ako ng tuwid dahil don. I cleared my throat. Inayos ko din ang shoulder bag ko sa braso. Damn! I looked so cheap in that moment.

Siguraduhin lang ng mga itong worth it ang ginawa kong paninilip kanina. I almost slap my forehead when I remembers it. Nagmukha akong highschool girl na nang-stalk sa crush niyang guy. Fuck it.

I cleared my throat again. Pinilig ko ang ulo para bumulong. "Is he that handsome and hot?" My friends doesn't just like anyone or anybody. They're my buddies after all. If they're acting like this and stoop this low just to fangirling with whoever that is then he must be really handsome.

I've seen countless times being like this. And I saw those guys and well... they really have taste, I could say.

I saw how Trina's eyes went on mine. "Girl. Unlike your any boylet. This one is way high up. He's on top. He's also a consistent Dean's lister and is now running for summa in the Law Department. Imagine how many girls wanted to bend their knees just to kiss his toes." I frowned because of her exaggeration.

Oh really? Running for summa in our Department? Hell boy, that's on another level. But... Isn't that just for a nerd? There are tons of smart people out here though. Pero kung katulad nito na magiging summa cum laude sa Law, aba! Ibang usapan na yon.

Speaking of nerds. Naalala ko na naman ang antipatikong iyon. Kala mo naman kung sinong gwapo. Tse! Akala niya talaga siya lang matalino. Kung makaasta, wagas! Feeling talaga. Pabasa-basa pa ng makapal na libro. Nagmamayabang lang naman. Ako pa talaga pinagbuntungan ng init ng ulo. E alam ko naman na nahihirapan na siya doon sa binasa niya kaya naiirita. Duh!

"So... he's a nerd?" I saw how her eyes rolled up high. Nagtatanong lang naman. Jusko.

"Girl, if a nerd is as fucking gorgeous like him. Hell I don't fucking mind." Kilig na kilig pa talaga. Naku! Ka landi landi talaga ng babaeng to.

Trina is right. Being intelligent is a bonus. I mean, more than just a bonus. Nakakadagdag points yun. Let's say... forty points.

Hindi ko tuloy maiwasang hindi maintriga sa kung sino man itong lalaking nagpapa-mysterious effect. Can't we just go inside? Hindi pa naman siguro ako na ban sa library.

"I'm telling you bitch." Napabaling ang tingin ko kay Megan nang magsalita ito. "This guy wasn't included in your target list. He's so well-respected. Well-preserved. He's too much for you to handle. Kay raming babaeng nagkandarapa pero ni isa walang makalapit. Even me. He has his own world and he's not interested in anybody and anything aside his own priorities." Napangiwi naman ako.

He sounds like a like a selfish to me, though.

"Ayan na. He's coming out." Impit na tili ni Trina naparang nag aapoy ang pwet.

"He's near. Oh my God! He's near!" Megs hysterically whisper.

Inayos ko naman ang pagkakatayo ko habang nakaharap sa Pinto.