i dont know if i want to start this off as sad or something but stuff it. play the song while reading this
~echo🏳️🌈
i feel really soft grey. it's like the way that stale, flat hair smells. dim lights and heavy blankets, covering me completely. soft, welcoming fogs that slowly suffocate you, breath by breath. it's like wearing a heavy grey jumper that smells of worn wool and wood. and im sitting there by the rocks that travel to the ocean looking up at the stars. but it's not like all the other times you used to go there. it feels muted, paused and it feels wrong. it feels grey.
i feel like the song taxi cab (Twenty Øne Piløts). but it's the version laced with heavy greys and dark browns. it's not like the light purple, calming side of it. but ive always feels like that song. out of all their songs, taxi cab just...resonates with me. all of the lyrics just fit too well. if you want to know me better, listen to it.
right now, i feel like im in a room. a room that reaches to the stars, but it's small. it's like a tank and it has almost opaque walls. and im sitting there at the bottom breathing in the dark fog thinking about what ive written down.
everything else just feels...dimmer. everything has very plain tones to them. feeling soft grey makes my emotions almost fade away. it's like im laying on the cold, muddy ground letting the rain fall on me. it's cold and wet but i don't care.
im tired. im stuck.
and it's hard.
it's really hard.
heh i guess this is where you probably realise that i am a sad smol bean. im not always like this tho, i promise. i hope you like my random pictures i put up : )
~ echo🏳️🌈
