Darkness welcomed me with its hands

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          I felt cozy as I left my new home.Its more chilling under the castle,that summer is overhead and it's unnoticeable .Oversize handcuffs hanging on my  hands,clinging so loose I'm able to slip through it and fled to freedom.

          I didn't .Why should I ?There's nothing left above the land for me to recall,nothing for me to hang on .I glanced at my side guards,they were both shaking badly like leaves.I guessed I really looked like a sanity murderer at all.

          I let out a hysterical laugh.They jerked and kept the distance further .I was sentenced for the crime of assassination of neighbouring countries'  posterity,seducing the prince to overthrow the country.I don't have the reason take away someone's life,I just want to get married and get my peaceful life as a responsible and lovely wife.So why would I hold a knife or add drops of killing poison or even shot them down using a pistol?Nobody believed.

          On the court,words came out of my mouth was automatically 'deleted' when the queen spoke.The one who my loyalty lied on .The one who blamed me for her cause.The one who sacrifice me for her own deed.I was the Queen's servant since I was young .I grown up and learned with her.Protecting her from unknown danger,giving her my best ,leading her through the correct path.As I though I was.

          The prince,one of Queen's precious son,always spoke his love to me.I was  convinced and accepted his proposal after few years.I don't mind age gap,I believed true love has no restrictions.We were suppose to get married by 24 July.While we were asking approval from the Queen,I should've notice the hidden message passed through them with eye contact ,but I was too numb.My mind was full of happiness, unable to stuff and even bothered by anything else that would crush my hope and dreams.

          Weeks before the marriage,I was doing my duties ,preparing documents for the Queen's meeting with other ministers.Out of sudden ,the guards slammed open the door and walked in quick pace,blocking every windows and doors.The head knight walked in and announced my crime.I was shocked and dragged out of the room .I yelled and struggled to free myself.At this moment,one of the knights knocked me off .

         As I regained myself,I was sitting on the court,everyone's eyes on me . Anger. Hatred .  Unforgivable. After the useless argument in court,I was first been whipped 30 times infront of everyone.I shrieked in every whip,begging for mercy,begging for justice.I looked around ,my eyesight became fuzzy.Everything seems to blur and fade in and out ,twisting into weird shapes .I gave up and visit the dark.

I was woke by a bucket of icy cold water pouring over me.Laid on the prison floor,I was soaked ,wet and cold .I tried to lift myself up but I can't regain my balance.I laid on the floor for exactly one day,shivering through the night.When they provided food,it was those leftover from the feast,mixed together forming my meal.I can identify it from the vary pieces of tasty seafoods and steamed veges.Celebrating a big case solved is an usual thing they do.I stretched my hands ,using all my energy left and grabbed the mixing food ,ignoring the strong smell ,I stuff it in without hesistation.The taste was unbearable.I let it flow towards my stomach forcefully,tears steaming down every bite. My stomach grumbled ,it doesn't like the taste of it .But how can I deny any food provided?It's better than starving .

         Coming back to reality,I realised I was standing in the middle of corridor,I looked at the mirror hanging on one of the prison beside me.I saw a girl,face swollen and pale as sheet of paper,the eyes are unable to identify by the dark sockets and the excessively long fringe covering it.Then I noticed,she was smiling , drops by drops,tears leaking out of her blue eyes,dripping on the floor.She---I didn't notice I was so skinny than ever and that I'm crying.I wiped my face using my dry hands,It trembled so hard ,causing the metal cuffs to clatter,echoed through the the hallway.

         The guard pushed me softly with his spear ,told me to keep moving .I walked towards the source of light ,now appearing suddenly . As I stepped out of it,the light is blinding and unforgivable.It warms me so much. I am willing to seek for heaven in this condition.Everyone was yelling and throwing random vegetables at me .Mentally,I thank them because it looks like I'm going to married,instead of beautiful roses and tulips ,cabbages and tomatoes are thrown ,like a blessing ,in a different way.When the executor sharpens his blade ,it let's out a screeching sound that silence the crowd.I thank him too.

          I was forced by the guards to lie my neck on a piece of wooden block which had stains of blood,some in dark velvet red , some part where cherry red.The smell is strong ,I had goose bumps for it and my body reflexes and I tried to strangle off the strong pressure holding both of my shoulders .This make it worst,the guards pushed my neck with their full strength ,I choked when my neck banged with the bloody surface of the wood.

         I don't understand the concept of slaughtering people infront of everyone.Won't they have nightmares?I wonder.I never stand by the Queens side when someone was sentenced ,I have no time for relaxing.Not like the Queen,I helped her arranged schedules and duties which came one by one after I finished one of it.

I noticed her seat ,it's just infront of the stage.I look into her stormy grey eyes, no sign of regret nor sympathy.She is a stranger to me.Since when am I a stranger to her?I know I will never get the answer.I glance at the prince,standing at her back,smirking and eating grapes like he is watching a good show. I was betrayed by both of them...but betrayed seems to be a strong word but I can't find anything to describe my situation.I am not promised by anything but they are,WERE nice to me .They didn't seem to be fake .I give a weak smile , towards who?I don't know.When the blade slides through the wind,I saw the darkness giving out its hands,welcoming me towards peace, and leaving this cruel world.

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