2 hours 36 minutes and 12 seconds...
I sat nervously in math thinking about who will be my soul mate. The clock on my arm slowly ticks down as I sit doing nothing in the middle of class. No one knows me. No one cares about me. Why would anyone even notice that I am here and not next to me? I think my clock is wrong. It will never be today, it can't be today. Why today? No one knows, notices, or cares about me in this town. My mom left my dad when I was 6 and my dad didn't want me. Obviously I am unwanted even in my own family, in my own school, in my own life. The bell rang, lunch.
14 minutes, 13 seconds...
The clock is ticking closer and closer to zero, threatening to swallow me up and never take me back. It's like you are drowning in the ocean and every time you come up for air another wave crashes down upon you. The darkness was slowly swallowing my body, the waves kept crashing down upon me, black fog was surrounding me, the ball and chain attached to my foot as I climbed a staircase was getting heavier and heavier-but I kept swimming, kept climbing, kept going. I don't know why I didn't go and hide in the library but it seemed like a good idea now that I was in the cafeteria.
4 minutes, 2 seconds...
I couldn't do it! There was no way I could do it. I walked out of the cafeteria and ran to the library.
2 minutes, 45 seconds...
I ran as far as my legs would take me. I wanted to go to the library, to go and read a book and immerse myself into the world printed before me.
36 seconds...
I managed to grab a book from the library and sit down at a table. The book slowly took hold of me, but I was not here. I was far away in the land of my mind.
12 seconds...
The time was getting closer. I'm panicking, I don't want to meet my soul mate now. Not yet.
10 seconds...
What should I say? What should I do? Why didn't I wear a nicer outfit?
9 seconds...
The waves. Oh the waves. They kept coming, threatening to take hold of me and strangle me.
8 seconds...
My heart started to skip a beat at random intervals.
7 seconds...
The fog threatened to swallow me whole. I wasn't ready! I wasn't ready! I don't want to find my soul mate now.
6 seconds...
Oh god. Why can't I breathe?
5 seconds...
I could feel my heart leaping out of my chest. My emotions crashed together in a wave that took a while to resurface from.
4 seconds...
I close my book and walk to the shelf to put my book away.
3 seconds...
I go and retrieve my stuff from the table I was sitting at.
2 seconds...
My knees are shaking. My palms are sweating. My breath is coming out ragged. I start to notice all of the flaws about me. My nose, my ears, my hair.
1 second...
I can't breathe. The waves keep crashing down around me. My ears are ringing. My breath is short. My palms are waterfalls. My knees are like earthquakes. I could feel my entire body trembling in fear. I walk to the door to leave the building.
0 seconds...
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I can't breathe my breath escapes my lungs as quickly as I am filling them. I open the door and change my mind. There was no one in the library and I could stay by myself. I drop my stuff off at the nearest table and go to a shelf to pick up my book. I turn around quickly trip over my own feet and fall, but I don't hit the ground. I look up to see a boy, who caught me. I thank him and he just smiles sheepishly. I look away my face burning red. Instead I look at his arm.
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