A Light In The Dark

Not So Lazy Sunday

**TRIGGER WARNING**

**Going to be 100% honest the beginning of this chapter will be vulgar so read with caution**

All I could feel was his hands on my body moving up and down. I could feel his rough hands on me. I could only hear the sound of his evil laughter as he took me. I couldn't see anything, but I could feel his presence. As he got on top of me I wanted to scream "NO STOP PLEASE!" But nothing would come out. He finished with me after I had satisfied him. I could hear him go over to a table and pick up something. He walked over to me and in a gruff voice, he spoke. " Do you know what this is?" I didn't respond I couldn't. "It's a hammer, and I'm going to use it to smash all the bones in your puny little hands. Then if your good I'll show you what I can do with my toys. I heard air rush upwards and then BAM.

"NO HELP PLEASE!" I scream as I fall to the floor. My heart is pounding against my chest I can't breathe. I can't breathe! My chest feels tight. I know what's happening and I can't stop it. Tears streamed down my face and Phichit ran into my room panicked. He kneeled down in front of me. "Yuuri look at me."  He spoke calmly and softly. He had done this multiple times before, he helped me try to stay calm. "It's okay Yuuri I'm here just breath. Look into my eyes." I did as I was told. "You are okay everything will be okay. Just breath in and out, in and out. What can you hear, think about five things you hear right now." I could hear the small kids chattering outside as they wait for their bus to school, the buzzing of my alarm, Phichit's voice telling me when to breathe, I could hear the sound of my own racing heart and the sound of loud cars outside. My breathing slowed slightly. "Now what can you see?" I opened my eyes and looked around my room. I was at home I was safe Phichit was right next to me helping me and he was not going to hurt me. I was okay. I closed my eyes. I just sat there with my eyes closed for about five minutes. When I opened my eyes Phichit was sill there. " You're okay" I smiled slightly in agreement and said. "I'm okay.Phichit and I stood up and went to the kitchen. He got me a glass water and sat across from me. He immediately started tapping. He has ADHD so it's kinda funny that the two of us get along so well. He opened his mouth to speak but I already knew what he was going to say. " I know you want me to go to that group therapy thing. I just don't know if I'm ready yet." Phichit nodded "I know Yuuri but I'm worried about you. It has been 6 months and you haven't gotten any better. You haven't talked to anyone but you mom and I and you haven't left the house in weeks.And you still won't let me touch you! I'm your best friend for life!  want to help you but I can't do it alone.I know things have been more than hard but will you please give it a try." I stayed quite for a long time. "How about this," I finally said. We can bring back that old pinky thing we used to do and I'll go to one meeting. If I like it I'll say but if I don't you can't make me go back." Phichit thought about this and finally agreed. He held his pinky out to mine and we basically did a motion like a pinky promise. I finished my water and told Phichit I was getting in the shower and when I finished I changed and went into my room to start my online classes. After a while, I got bored and went into Phichit's room to play with his hamsters. We had fun with his "children" and he told me that he talked with the therapist and I could come with him on Wednesday of next week. After rather lazy few hours I, went to grab something to eat and afterward I went into a small room in our apartment and did my daily exercise routine. My long shoulder length hair was tied up in a small bun. As time went by I started to wonder why the hell I was exorcizing on what was supposed to be a lazy Sunday. I took my hair down and let it fall I walked ver to the couch logged into Netflix and watched The Nightmare Before Christmas considering Halloween was less than a month away it felt right. But about halfway through the movie I felt my eyelids start to get heavier and I soon fell asleep.

A//N lmao the first chapter published at 3:00 a.m. but oh well I wasn't going to sleep tonight anyway. I hoped you enjoyed and make sure to vote and comment. Thank you for reading! <3 (871 words)