Tony, My Love- Clay x Tony

Introduction

Tony, I would consider him my best friend even though he's been keeping a lot from me. I get it now though, he was there that day. He saw the worst thing Hannah had done and by the time he was with her, it was too late for him to do anything. I don't know what I would've done in his situation, therefore I can't force him to say or do anything.
Although this isn't about Tony and Hannah, it's just about Tony. He said something today and I'm not sure how to interpret it. Tony's gay and apparently he's been out for a long time. What a friend I am, I didn't even know. He said that his boyfriend has been jealous that he'd been hanging out with another guy... that guy is me. But when I tried to mention that we were only hanging out because of Hannah's tapes and not in a romantic way, Tony responded by saying "yeah sure". I think Tony wants to be more than just friends, but how do you break the news to your best friend that you don't want to be anything more?
The answer is: you don't. Unless he asks me directly I will not say anything about it to him. This past year I have lost two close friends of mine, and I will not allow Tony to be the third. I didn't say anything to him and instead we just walked to his car. My mom had called me eight times and was worried sick about me. He drove me home, but in the way I listened to my tape, tape 11.
The night of Jessica's party, right before Junior year started, Hannah and I were both there. That night I kissed her for the first time. One thing led to another and we ended up in Jessica's room. Although Hannah pushed me away and started crying before things escalated. I wasn't sure why before, but now I know it wasn't my fault. All the terrible things guys, like Justin and Zach, had done scared her and made her think that for a split second I was like them. Each time she yelled "get out", she meant, "please stay", and each, "leave me alone", meant, "help me through this". Hannah loved me, but it's too late now...

A/N: Writing this because I couldn't find a fanfic about my otp... Please don't judge because this is my first time writing a full fanfic!! :)