A belieber

J

I don't know you and I never will but the more I look at you the more I realise just how deeply in love I am with you. I'm annoyed at myself for loving someone who will never know who I am. I'm annoyed that I love you Justin bieber out of all people I had to love you.

You hurt me everyday and yet you still manage to make me smile at the saddest of moments. Your jokes aren't the funniest at all which is why they make me laugh so much. I hope that your okay. I hope that you are truly happy. Even though deep down I know your just as messed up as I am.

I'm sorry if I've ever let you down.

There was a time in my life when I drifted away from you but something told me to not be so stupid I went weeks without thinking about you all the time you nearly disappeared. But of course you couldn't even if I wanted to I could never get rid of you. And trust me sometimes all I want to do is push you away all I want to do is scream because I know you see me as another girl who screams and cries when they meet you or attacks and swarms you when your doing the most random things.

But I'm just somebody average who will never get to see you live or meet you or have the privilege of being anywhere near you. Maybe it's because I don't deserve it.

I've been supporting you for 6 years since I was 8 years old. You've helped me through everything so I want to help you. And I think that's why It hurts so much. To know that you could be hurt or crying somewhere or be doing something incredibly stupid. I can't help you or stop you. I can't hug you and tell you everything's going to be alright like you do in my dreams.

I once had a dream that you were stood by my bed holding my hand. You were trying so hard to wake me up but I couldn't move. But I could still see you smiling down at me. It felt so real and when I woke up I remember reaching out to where you were stood to only find that you were gone I was so sad but I had never been so calm and peaceful then in that dream.

Because you were there. I could do anything. I can do anything if your by my side. I imagine that you stand by me and I hope that you do the same.

To you I'm a fan but I'll always be a belieber Justin I'll always stick up for you and fight for you. But I'll still roast your ass when you do something stupid. But that's why were here. To keep you grounded.

The girls that scream and take pictures in your face are not beliebers the girls and the people who mob you and hurt and use you are not true fans or friends. Beliebers will stand with you forever cause we can't leave. Even if we try we can't leave. I'm not obsessed with you I'm supportive. I don't see you as a sex god I see you as my best friend I see you as my guardian angel. You have always protected me and so many other beliebers around the world. So thank you for being you. You'll always be our Justin our kidrauhl.

You'll always be my main bitch