12:00 am
Silence. The never ending silence of your own thoughts can be deadly when your thoughts are unpure. Everything has lost its meaning.
Friends, family, school everything seems to drag on and you have no will or desire to persevere.
If one ponders on it long enough you will come to the realization that nobody really cares. They only pretend to care or they care for there own personal gain. Its sad really. My life used to so amazing....no that's a streach my life was decent and comfortable. I'm not gonna lie and say I was always happy because in reality I wasn't but my life had those moments where It was like yeah maybe its not that bad but its not all that great either-
I was snapped out of my thoughts when my alarm clock rang."dang" I whispered yelled growing because tonight has been another tierelsss night. I didn't even notice I had been awake all night...again.
I drag myself out of bed and grab my phone unlocking it and stumbling off my bed as I made my way into the bathroom.
I sigh as I examine my body. I had always been good and hiding things so when I started cutting I knew better than to place them on my wrist or thighs. I smirked at my artwork.
And no I don't cut because I'm sad or want to die..but I'm not gonna lie if I was held at gun point I'd say just pull the trigger. I just have a very twisted mind I cut because I don't like my body shape so in my mind marking my ugly body in ugly scars makes me feel like I have control and I'm my life I can't control anything but knowing I have the power to make myself bleed just soothes me and makes me smile I just be feeling inpowerd.
