Introvert

What feelings does Introvert has in various situations

I am an introvert. I came to know it about a few days ago. It was mesmerising when I did come to know about my own self. I want to express people my emotions in some situations through this story...

Imagine you are present in amongst 40 people. Everyone is talking to each other. Someone came and talked to you. That to a small conversation. Would you feel bored ? I think I won't because it is better than waste conversation.
Most of the time I get a question often that is life about money and satisfying ourselves or life is beyond it.??What is the main reason for being a human being.?? I don't get the answer which is reaching my expectations. I love to enjoy silence. It's like it gives energy to me and sometimes talking to my close friends and my loved ones make me charged. It's like I lose energy in public and I gain it back in loneliness. This doesn't mean I am shy. I am not feeling that it is worth to share my ideas.
Once I tried to improve a friend and in turn I got something which I was afraid of, that is attachment. He had a unique life style. He had a good soul. But his surrounding environment was full of negative energy. I agree that negative energy is required but laziness and carelessness and excess negative energy had destroyed his good soul. I felt too bad. I found myself in that good soul, but attachment destroyed it.
This is how an introvert feel when people expect something when they are mentally attached.

We introverts have few small groups where we enjoy socialism. It's not like we are always lone. We do hang out with few people of may be 2-3. Being an introvert, in my point of view having 1 or 2 best friend is better than having hundreds of friend who don't understand you. I have a friend whom I believe as a shadow of me. He always tried to understand me. He is like last hope of me. I chat with him on social media most of the times because I don't have that dare to tell it on face. I feel happy for no reason when I  speak to him. He is amazing person. Sometimes he becomes more dominant that time I give him his space and anticipate with my cousin.

My cousin is a personality of human kindness, child hearted and a mind of Buddha. My cousin helps me out in many ways, like when I am upset with my life, she gives me hope and supports me to do something. I truly think that selflessness is the key to success in humanity. She is more worth to me than myself, because when I hear their ideas I get so much energy mentally and feel satisfied to be her brother. She is also an introvert. She behaves like a child hearted which I like the most.

People always underestimate introverts. They think that introvert are useless and unproductive but I say most successful people somewhere are introverts. Let's understand it in brief . When I feel upset I'm life I find unstable mind and everything i do goes wrong. I always get upset because I never get a good answer for a question, i.e what is life? Why are we present here? I never get an answer to it. I feel very bad that time. But afterwards i listen to my dad for a while and feel encourage to study. I feel that life is something like an opportunity to prove world that humanity has not end. I am speaking about humanity not human existence. What energy our thoughts posses is really so much that one cant even imagine. I love going to hills or getting surrounded by nature. I love to hug nature. Nature is the only thing in this whole universe who gives you mental support with irrespective of its position or condition.

These were my thoughts. It may vary from person to person. It varies from me to my best friend only then rest all others may vary. I would say that it was not to hurt anyone. I expressed my feelings. Just read it as a article and try to get morals out of it in your view. I will continue in my next part about my daily experiences