Half a Smile

Kapitel 14 - 9 April 2013

"Why are we doing this again?"

"The secrets?"

"But the beginn-"

"One more word about the beginning and I'm going to beat you up."

"Suuuuuuuuuure..."

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Jeg smiler, jeg sider med min sang bog. Jeg forsøger at passe nogle noder ind til min nye sang, jeg forlader alt omkring mig når jeg hører tangenterne som giver lyd fra sig, når jeg trykker på dem. Det er fantastisk, og fascinerende.

"Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Losing friends and I'm chasing sleep
Everybody's worried about me
In too deep
Say I'm in too deep (in too deep)
And it's been two years
I miss my home
But there's a fire burning in my bones
Still believe
Yeah, I still believe

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

A lot of fight left in me

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

This is my fight song (Hey!)
Take back my life song (Hey!)
Prove I'm alright song (Hey!)
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong (I'll be strong)
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

No I've still got a lot of fight left in me"

Jeg smiler i det den sidste tone kommer fra klaveret. Jeg elsker den her, bare at flyde ind i musikken. Komme væk fra alt, være den jeg er. Indadvendt. Jeg små griner.

Jeg hopper i sædet, I det jeg hører det her: "You know, you're incredibly cute." En stemme jeg har hørt før, men kan ikke placer ansigt på. "Thanks." Hvisker jeg tilbage. "What?" Spørger stemmen som har flyttet sig tættere på. "Thanks." Siger jeg igen, en smile højere end en hvisken, men ikke meget. Jeg bliver ved med at holde al min opmærksomhed mod min sang bog, og klaveret. Bænke sædet bevæger sig en smule. "Play something for me, no wait, that just sounds stupid, I really like your voice, no not that. It's just even more creepy, I like watching you sing. I can't get out of this?" Spørger stemmen frustreret, jeg vender mit hoved. "No you can't... Ashton." Svarer jeg smilende. Jeg pakker min bog og blyanterne sammen og rejser mig. "Wait! Where are you going?! Don't leave me!" Råber Han efter mig og tager fat i mit håndled. Jeg stivner. "Let go of my wrist. Please..." Ordene bliver formet roligt og still. Han slipper.

Udgivet: 04/05-17