ice-water!(one shot)

Tuwing uwian nung ako ay elemantary pa lang madalas kaming mag laro ng mga kaklase ko ng ice-water habang hinihintay ang school service na maghahatid saamin pauwi.

And in that short time of playfull innocence I fell inlove.

You can call it puppy love ar infatuation.

Pero matatawag pa bang puppy love or infatuation kung 11 years ka nang may feelings towards sa isang tao?

You can call me a martyr or stupid. But what can I do? Kung ang malandi kong puso eh sumama na sa kanya bago pa man ako mag puberty.

I don't know why, but 11 years ago all I can remeber is us playing ice-water, siya yung taya at sa di inaasahang pag kakataon na corner ako sa isang sulok I got iced so hindi ako pwede makagalaw and while yung mga kalaro naming iba ay nag a-atempt na I-water ako para makagalaw. I just sat there frozen so I looked at him, his back is on me and as if on cue he looked back flushed with his silly grin plastered on his face. Then my world stopped and my heart skipped a few beats.

But back then I was too young to realize it.

And on fourth grade I changed school, and like any elementary kids my classmates are all into crushes, but there was me. I had no interest with anyone from our school, kaya madalas eh niloloko nila ako sa mga school "hearthrob" daw. So I tried looking for someone to actually have a crush on cuz I was feeling a bit left out. And I did, only they.. I mean he was fictional. 

Then I entered highschool.

At parang isang shoujo manga, naging magkaklase kami. At masasabi ko rin na mejo naging close kami, pero hangang dun lang pala yun. Noong summer bago kami maging 2nd year, nag confess ako sa kanya. I got his number from my bestfriend. Actually I had it even before summer. Pero nung summer ko lang nakuha yung lakas ng loob na mag confess since there is a huge probability na hindi na kami maging mag ka klase since our school shuffles regular sections for reasons I have no intent on knowing. 

So I texted him. 

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to: Zack

Hi! Its me Ann, I have always wanted to tell you that I like you. I know this is silly and pathetic but I just couldn't say it personally without dying so I am saying it here in a text. Sorry.

Sent: 9:27

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I know its cowardly and very stupid but its the best I could do. I confessed thru text.

And to my surprise he replied.

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from: Zack

Hello, nagising ako sa text mo, Haha, but thats ok. And I'm so sorry, I already have someone that I like.

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And thats how I got my first rejection, my first heart break.

Normally people would stop na, right?

But since I am an abnormal peice of shit I didn't.

But I swear to God I did try! 

But everytime I am close to forgetting him.

Fate just finds away to bring all the feelings back.