FEELINGS° YUWIN

∆Don't Worry∆

(Y'all I was listening to NCT's Baby don't like it while writing this~~~
Littttttttt)

Yuta's heart was Green and WinWins was red.

Christmas colors.

Yuta was bright and the literal sunshine in the relationship and WinWin was the clouds that covered him up.

Sometimes though, in times like these Yuta and WinWin swapped places and WinWin was the green that blended with Yuta and made him happy again. That let Yuta's downpour of sadness blend with his happy so it was 50-50 and Yuta felt better.

If he could he would get rid of every bad and fearful thing Yuta disliked about the world, about himself and just store it away and take the hurt away for him.

He wanted to protect Yuta even if he hurt himself.

Because in all the years WinWins been suffering the only person he knew to suffer more was Yuta,except he never said anything.

It broke WinWins heart and so there wasn't anything he could do but outstretch his arms and hands and wait for the boy with the weak heart. The heart he couldn't defend.

"Yuta."

WinWin breathed over and over again pushing him away by the chest to get Yuta to stop kissing him. It was a bit suffocating and Yuta was so headstrong sometimes.

He just wasn't listening.

"Mota~ Please."

WinWin tried again and this time he saw the hesitancy in the way Yuta moved now and the way he shut his eyes so he wouldn't have to look at WinWin. His movements slowed themselbes , fingers coming to a halt and not grabbing so harshly at WinWin anymore. Yuta would never go against what WinWin wanted, he would never force anything on him but how would he get his point across if he gave in so easily.

He felt so hopeless and it filled him with fear. It was like his heart, his emotions, his unspoken feelings were on the inside of a clear box that he could see through. He saw the bright lights and the world around him lively and moving,  but each second the walls closed and in and he was stuck waiting for pain and anxiousness that continued each moment the glass walls free closer to him.

It was like everybody saw what was happening but they never really did acknowledge it or help him.

"You did nothing wrong. It was me baby."

WinWin sighed softly against Yuta's neck, watching the goosebumps use and roll over all over Yuta's skin.

WinWin really did feel like his heart had been smashed over and over again it hurt so badly watching Yuta cry, so brokenly, so devastated at something he hadn't even done incorrectly or made a mistake on, it was WinWin who made him cry and he wanted to cry himself for doing this to Yuta.

"I'm so sorry Mota~ I love you so much."

These weren't empty words WinWin spoke, gently carresing Yuta's hair with his hands still wrapped up Yuta's tie hooked around Yuta's neck while Yuta laid on top of his chest, bodies aligned and meshed perfectly. Yuta was hiding his face in WinWins collarbones leaking waterfalls from his eyes.

Yeah. Nonstop waterfalls. Like the damn Niagara Falls.

It was horrible for WinWin listening to Yuta's gibberish, his apologies to WinWin for making him jealous and not having asked him out already.

"I'm so scared ChengSi. I don't know what to do. How can I make you happy? What if you leave me? I'll die. My heart will be fried."

Yuta sniffled succumbing to the warmth WinWins body provided and the sweet scent of lavender and WinWin making him feel drowsy and safe.