Falling Faster

Why

I was there when it all happened. You saw her, she saw you. I loved you, but all you wanted to do was crush me. Sometimes I wonder why I try loving. I always end up hurt. I see you with her at night and I wonder what I did to make you hate me. Did I do it or was it you?? I don't care anymore because I know you blame me. I try to get over my fear of drowning in a pool of tears.

Im crying!! Look at me for 2 seconds and ask. Don't assume it's like last time. I try to look happy for you. I don't mean to cry in front of you, but when I do, will you please just be there for me. I know you don't like me, but you are all I have. You are all I've loved. Yes, I loved you!!!!!! I will always love you! I haven't stopped and I never will. You are the one person who gets me. I know you don't see me the same and I don't see you the same anymore, but just one time.

Crying isn't a sign of weakness. Or at least I don't see it like that. I see it as a way to show how much shit you can take until you break. I've been through too much to keep a straight or happy face. I look around and I see all these people hugging and kissing and think of what we could have had. Think back to our love and how special it was. I never saw anyne else like that and I still don't and I don't know if I ever will. You were mine and I was determined to keep you as my own for as long as I could. I still want you.

I know it's bad to say, but if she doesn't want you anymore, I will take you. You have always been mine. I can let you go. Please just stay this time so I don't look stupid and prove everyone right. I can't take anymore heart break. Just one thing, why?