Groggily opening my eyes I reached out and switched my alarm off, just another day at the hell hole...great. I climbed out of bed and stepped over to my clothes draw, picking out my ugly
school uniform. "Laura! Come on you'll miss the bus!" Sighing, I looked at my bed and thought to myself 'a few more hours of sleep and I'd actually be in a good mood...weird.' After getting dressed I trudged down stairs to greet an over excited mum "Finally! Come on sweetheart, chop chop, get that breakfast down you!" "Urgh" I groaned as I trod around her.
Stepping down off the public bus I walked around the last little corner to school. I was just about to look about for my bestfriend before I remembered...Breaking down once again my tears engulfed me, I couldn't live without her, I just couldn't.
Dragging my tired legs through the playground I headed to my first class. What's even the point of classes if Stella isn't in them, she's all I can ever think about. It should've been me, oh how it should've me. It's all my fault. I'm responsible. I need to die to escape this torture people call life. "Laura? Laura!" "huh? What?" I jump out of my thoughts only to face an angry teacher, "Laura I know you miss Stella but that doesn't mean you can't learn! Now, what's the answer to number three?" I sat there confused and I admit a little stunned, I had been completely lost in my thoughts and I hadn't been paying attention at all. "Umm...Alexander Hamilton?" A fuming teacher nearly smoked with
aggravation "Laura! This is not acceptable I have put up with you nonsense for a while but PLEASE pay attention! And as well as that this is a maths class where on earth did you get Alexander blooming Hamilton from?!" The rest of the class laughed, that was when I just couldn't take it anymore! I started breathing heavily. The room was spinning. I knew what was happening, since Stella was taken away from me I'd been having panic attacks, I was about to have one now. Everyone sat in dazed silence as I slumped in my chair, my face redening. My body shaking."I think it's time you went home Laura," Mr Rensworth said, sighing with defeat. "I will call your mother to come pick you up and when you get home have a nice rest okay?" "Okay" I sighed, and I went to collect my things.
When I arrived home I ran straight up to my room, burying myself under the covers I tried to hide from the days events. Unsuccessful. A knocking on my door brought me back to my senses, "Stella! I thought I heard you come in! Why are you back so early? Why did I get a call from your Headteacher today? Where you daydreaming again? Is this about Stella?" I groaned "Jesus mum! An interrogation much? I'm back early because I zoned out it maths, and yes it was because of Stella, everyone keeps expecting me to get over it but it happened only a week ago!" She sat down in my bed gently, showing a sad smile, "Yes honey I realise that, but you can't let it get it the way if your life" I shot an angry look at my mum "THE POLICE AREN'T EVEN LOOKING ANYMORE MUM! I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO HASN'T GIVEN UP ON HER!" She patted my leg calmly, "It's going to be ok hon, I'll let you rest and talk to you later" still fuming, I went to sleep.
One Week Ago
Giggling, Stella and I ran along the high street, madly dodging people in the exit of New Look, after hours of shopping we eventually had to stop and sit down to rest. Just as we were standing up a man in a black suit made a quick, undetectable movement and before we knew what was happening Stella was in the arms of the man who ruined my life. Screaming I tried to fight Stella loose but before I knew what was happening a bag was thrown over her head and I was pushed into the road as a distraction, after I was hit by the car I don't know what happened to Stella but what I do know is I woke up in hospital without my best friend.
After that moment Stella still hasn't been found and she's been supposed dead. With no other information The police have been clueless. And I've been torn apart.
With nothing to live for and no happiness I just had to carry on my daily routine, wake up, do teeth, eat, go to school, come home from school, eat, sleep, repeat. I didn't know how much longer I would be able to hold up my will to live but for one reason only I had to carry on living, my mum. It would tear her apart for her to lose me as well as Dad so I just couldn't do that to her. Actually, I can't lie to myself, there's another reason, deep, deep down, somewhere in my heart, I believed that there was a sliver of hope of Stella coming back.
Standing on the edge of the tall building, I watched the birds fly under the clouds, just as I was about to turn around to go home a bony hand stopped me. A little startled I try to re-gain my balance, that was when I fell.
Tearing through the freezing air my arms looked around for anything to grab onto but there was nothing. I was screaming, shouting thrashing about, trying to find something to stop my descent in the blinding air. Managing to open my eyes I saw a balcony jutting out from the building , I lurched my arms forward as much as I could to reach it...I missed.
Hitting the Ground
As the ground drew closer by the second, I had one thought on my mind. Stella. Even if I would die, at least I would die happy.
