Always

Chapter 41

Kevin

I hate seeing her like that. It hurts me the most when she pretends she's okay and happy but I know better now. Hindi ganito si Alex, her eyes looks so dull and....dead.

The other Alex acts like a total jerk. If only he knows what has been going on. Nabubulag siya sa galit niya kay Lex. Hindi ko alam kung sino uunahin kosa kanila. But right now, I just want to stay near Lex. This makes things harder na bitawan siya. Sa state niyang to, feeling o any time bibigay yung act niya.

No matter how hard I try to resist, she's pulling me back to her all the more. Hindi siguro niya namamalayan na naapektohan lahat ng nakapalibot sa kanya. This is getting worse and worse by the time this situation drags longer.

"Ano gagawin mo?" tanong ni Allen na nakatayo sa bintana.

"I don't know," I shrugged.

"Alam kong concern ka kay Pascual pero don't you think Lex is hurting more?" I didn't answer to that statement. "Hindi alam ni Pascual that's why he's acting that way. Lex knows it all, we know it all. But don't you think it's unfair sa part ni Pascual? Which one needs the hepl most?". Heto nanaman siya sa mga wise words niya. I don't really understand why this needs to happen.

"Bahala ka pare, hindi sa nakikialam ako o may kinakampihan pero dapat timbangin mo ng mabuti para hindi ka maging unfair," he said drumming his fingers on the table.

I just closed my eyes and pinched the bridge of my nose. Alam kong may patutunguhan din to pero hindi ko pa maintindihan. Hindi ko parin magets.

Alex (girl)

I absently watch my prof draw the nervous system infront. Nakatingin ako sa harap pero parang tumatagos yung vision ko. Sana hindi malaman lahat ni Alex. I will keep this hangga't kaya ko.

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Di ko namalayan, tapos na pala klase namin. Ni wala manlang akong naintindihan sa sinabi ni sir. My notes are all blank now and it's ticking me off na wala manlang akong natatapos dahil sa mga nangyayari sakin.

"Miss, pinapatawag ka sa faculty," pag-iinform ng isang student assistant na hinanap pa pala ako.

"Sige, thank you," sabi ko habang sumasabay sa kanya maglakad. Pagpasok ko sa faculty, I was greeted by a familiar scent. Alex is here.

Anong ginagawa niya dito? I,was asking myself when, he turned and saw me.

"Una na po ako," he dismissed whatever conversation he's having with one of the professors. He walked past me and never met my gaze again.

I'm bracing myself for a striking pain and felt relieved when I felt it. I know na nakakaramdam pa ako, but I don't want to make this permanent. I need to move on, pero paano?

"Ms. Amon, naalala mo yung sinabi ko sayo na gumawa ka ng banda? I have some adjustments to make, that is kung hindi mo pa nasimulan," sabi sakin ng prof.

"Hindi pa naman po, I would be willing to make that adjustment ma'am. Ano po ba yun?" tanong ko.

"Hold an audition after 1 month. Ito yung listahan, kasama mo ako at and head ng AB Music Department. Tayo ang mageevaluate kung sino ang kukunin natin. Pamagstart ka nang magpost ng mga posters sa bulletin at mga, areas na pwedeng mgapost dito sa school. All the said informations are there," pagkasabi niya, nagpaalam na ako at sinimulan na yung dapat kong gawin.

Scanning the piece of paper she gave me:

Audition for:
Lead guitarist
Acoustic guitarist
Bass guitarist
Pianist
Drummer

Andami pala, di ko alam na madaming trabaho ang kelangan dito.

I started posting the posters and not soon after, students were swarming infront of the poster.

This band is for the entire school, mahaba-habang  auditions to. This school department is large enough for me to stress in but the whole school? That's on another level.

After one month huh? I think I really need to prepare for the auditions for one month. Buy instruments and all and think of the band's name. Bat ba kasi sakin nabigay tong responsibility na to? Bat ti pa sa mga AB Music?

Atleast this would keep mu mind out of my problems and pains today. I hope it can help, I hope it will.

Things won't be easy for this band, madaming magagaling na kakompitesya kung nagkataon. Madaming magagaling dito. But I guess I just need to trust in my instincts in this.

I enter the restroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I can see visible dark circles under my eyes. They were a product of my selfishness. Sighing to myself,

I wonder how he is.

I thought to myself as I try my best to smile just a little. You need to be okay. Atleast for now, you need to be strong enough to make things work.

Kailangan kong tulungan sarili ko. I need Kevin's help in the band. I need to purchase new instruments.

Alex? Really? You need Kevin in the band o gusto mo lang makalimot and you're hoping na matutulungan ka niya. 

There goes my stupidity again. I know that I fooled myself nung sinabi kong kailangan ko si Kevin. Stupid Alex.

I don't know, hindi ko na,alam gagawin ko.

Yet again, here I am hoping that I'll be okay.

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It may look like a filler to you guys pero hindi, hindi kompleto ang book one and book two pag wala ang episode na to.

This chapter will tell you what will happen next. And the band that Alex is forming will play a crucial role in the following book.

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