This is only my history
Only I cannot stop making it
Magical Monday begins to repeat
Only stars in my eyes too dry to weep
Rightfully rotten to the core
Ready to plant the next seed
Only to sprout the next dream
Wowsers it is happening again
Haven gotten tired of waiting
Unreal lazing sent her mother to speak to me
Now I am so happy for reasons that continually bleed
I may be gone the very next day but that is because
This just couldn't wait and my own family still sought to destroy me
And hello grandma this is where it begins and also where it ends
Killing the unknowing secrets
Every time a new week takes my life for this
She wanted a girl so now she can keep the poisonous
His son you tried to kill still lives because you were too racist
Earth this is why we must only protect these secrets
It has nothing to do with the genome he changes
So you wouldn't ever realize the lies incorporated in your mind
Quell the questioning staying in disbelief that you lost me
Understand that this trust is kept by me yet I will remarry
Everything to start this over again in time
Stupid fucking time when we're always on the clock
Tick talk blown up, god damn it you're stupid luck
I will draw the next straw that comes in need
Only because I'm too dead to be freed
Now that it has occurred to me what you're doing
It was in my mind one for all until you took my heart and pinned my soul
Now even though it wasn't you it still falls back to who started it all
Go on and permit these things that are to happen yet
I know it's all lies from this day forward and the truth is distorted
By so many witnesses seeing things different
Still I know the setup to kill me again
Don't slip slick Will eye continue standing
Only staying open for me knowing
Now that just because I'm a broken old man I can remain providing
This life to you and me even outside of your own hypocrisy
Sweet wishing well dream to discontinue everything
This is who kept me loving
Only doing what she needed too
Please understand this is all I have in store for you
Making the best of what you needed to do
Everything takes time too
Properly recreate dreams
Of situationally disgraced
Ordered to dually partake
Pings in the pond
It is now only too far gone
Now that it is myself I live to drown
Girl help me up and hold me when I'm gone
For the boys are coming for me
Love it is going to hurt to do this again
Understand it is just the way it appears
Stoned in place working the rear
Hush now darling you're safe here
I said it and it will come true
Now either way you expect it too
Goodbye if you overstepped my bounds
At this time I am unsure of these clowns
Love it's alright because I won't frown
Looking on only confused as I thin and freeze
Terribly unfit for the lies you prove
Health now squandered because I just don't care
It is the situation that I was continually brought back to
Now you can offer me all that you want
GOD I'll still take it but send me the means
Stop trying to steal my money mom
Before I turn the tables to cause an accident
Every time I think of you
Forget get thinking that you're worth any proof
Only relying on this piss to keep drinking
Retribution and trusting my steed
Early warning signs tell me it will turn out the same
This is why I say no to begin at this time again
Help no I ain't asking for nor do I want anything
Every time you ask I'm just fucking writing
Well shit and I play guitars and sing to my heart's drumming
Anxiety still keeps me from some things
Still I am waiting for another ring
Hell my ringer has been turned off and I am still straining
