So here i am again, in the state of saddness after talking about how a friend helps me , but why have i been thrown in this hell hole of saddness again? Is it because my body doesn't want me to be healthy? Is it because my brain likes being sad? How does it work? Maybe I'll never know, but what i know , is being borderline sad makes you harm yourself unconsciously , it makes you harm others around you without realizing it, and then suddenly, you realize what you've done, and you feel so terrible you want to die, or maybe you just want to be a happier person, but it could also be because you feel terrible about what you've done, like a physco who doesn't wanna be a physco. When I'm borderline sad, i get cold, so cold i feel like i rose from a grave in mid December , and that cold doesn't leave for a few hours, sometimes even days.......
