Asexual Love

Asexual

I'm an asexual, it makes life harder then it should be. No one wants a girl that can't love the normal way. A few times I thought I found love but it's never worked out. I'm just lonely, I wish the world was more diverse. I wish I didn't live around rednecks that breed like rabbits. I just want someone to love me that doesn't care what's in my pants. I want someone who will accept me for who I am, not who I pretend to be. I just want to be understood and loved. It seems like all anyone wants is sex, it's on tv, it's on the web, it's on paper, it's on everyone's mind; but mine. I see an attractive man and I want to get to know him, I don't want to do him. I see an attractive woman and I want to get to know her, I don't want to do her. All I want to do is softly kiss, hold hands, go on dates, and cuddle. I don't want to see anyone's body, touch anyone's parts, talk dirty, and have sex. I want romance and love but not the thing that seems to hold those together. People have sex without love all the time and yet when I tell someone I love without sex I'm a freak. I get it, sex is oh so grate, sex keeps our population plentiful, keeps couples together, gives such pleasure, is so damn craving but just cause you feel that way didn't mean I do. I get that you like it and you can't live without it but I can and it doesn't mean I'm a freak. I just need someone to love my mind and personality and my heart. I don't want to be seen as a piece of meat or the crewed one. I can't help who I am. And damn am I tired of being told it's my choice. I didn't choose the worst sexually ever, I was made this way, and now I'm stuck like this and I hate it. I'm so alone.