11:02PM
Dear Diary,
Today has just been another long day. I'm not sure how I feel anymore. Honestly, all I feel is numb and I don't really know what to do. It hurts and I find my release through self harm and now I hope through writing. So today my mom decided to introduce me to the new "man" in our lives. It's not like he is gonna be any different from the others. I don't like the way he acts or the way he looks at us. It's like he thinks he can control us, like he can wrap us around his fingers. Maybe her but not me. She won't ever marry any of these guys I don't see why she tries to get into a committed relationship when all she does is push the guys away. Funny thing is I find myself following into her footsteps more and more everyday. I act like her and I talk like her and it scares me. I was always scared to be like her and then everyone started pointing out I do act like her. Now I see it myself. It's so hard for me to maintain a relationship now and I know the person I am with doesn't want me thinking like this but, I'm scared I'm going to push him away. Honestly I am in a DDLG relationship and he makes me so happy and I won't mention who he is yet unless he gives me an ok to later in the future. We have a funny cute beginning of a relationship it was complicated but I owe a lot o Maddy for it. He knows just what to say and when to say it. He understands what I go through and he gave me a chance after what happened when we met. I also never got to apologize to SparksCaliber for what I did and I would like to say I am sorry for any damage and doubt I caused. Anyways I'm gonna go and fund something to do that doesn't involve hurting myself so probably some sleep.
Goodbye,
McKenna
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Dear Diary
Non-FictionSo a lot had gone on the first time I tried to write this but I'll try again. Two or more people are going to be writing in this. First person is going to be me, Madaline, and second will be my friend McKenna. You may also hear from some of my perso...
