Jinx

1/13/14

                  I was told to start this journal as a way to help with my depression. This seems pointless to me, but my mother has forced it upon me. I don't have a real problem with writing this, I guess. It just seems that this notebook could be used for something more important, It's not like I'm anything special. I guess you're all wondering what I'm really going to say about my day to day life. I won't lie, It is terrible to some degree. Unlike others I am aware of the cycle of death. There is nothing really to look forward to. That is what normal people use to forget there stresses and there constant fear of death. I long to die, because i have accepted that death ends the cycle of life, that not everyone wants to live. It isn't a bad life, I guess. I'm not ungrateful like most of the people that have life, at the moment. I am thankful for the colors, the sounds, the many beauties for in this natural world. I simply hate the world these humans have created. I had planned to rid the Earth of these pest, these "godly beings".  

         Having to interact with the disgusting people who have done knowing to help this planet or other humans of need. They destroy the inner beauty of each other and slowly they become more confident about themselves. This "Caring" and "Loving" people show no love or respect to the helping hand that was given or the begging man who they once were. These creatures are hateful and only care of their self. These creatures of "higher power" have no idea of equlity  among others.Barely they know how to allow free will to "superior" humans. 

      I find these creatures' actions sickening, i am forced to see them every day. Some i find are more empathic then others, but a completely devoted person to everything they do for the good of the world. Even with their flaws i must survive them on a daily basies.