this is me?

First time im actually writing in this.

10/22/17
Hi, I'm lacey I'm just writing this because I need some place to talk and i have no friends so. Anyways I'm taking drivers training right now and I only take it on the weekends next week is my last weekend and I'm so excited to be done with this shit I hate getting up so early you know? I lost a pair of my Nike shoes and I started crying because I have to do 3D training for soccer and I can't do it with regular shoes and my mom called me a baby which I don't blame her but really I don't know. I can't wait till winter so I could have a reason to stay in bed all day except for I'm depressed and can't physically get out of bed. You know how life gets harder when you don't know how to handle stuff like I was just talking about how I lost my Nike shoes I freaking out because I lost I got so sad because my mom called me irresponsible I try so hard and I just don't know what to do or say to make her happy and I don't know it makes me feel like a failure and that I'll never satisfy her. My depression holds me back, like when you're in water and you try to run but you can't cause if the resistance. Well depression is the water and I can't run away from it and I don't know how to get away. I'm sorry if I bring you guys down or if anyone ever reads this I'm sorry I'm so depressing all the time but I can't help it I hope you guys'll understand. I'll talk more tomorrow
-Lacey