Writings

Something about you

It's crazy how one person can seem to change your whole world. How one person can be so special to you, that you don't want to lose them. I have scars on my body, my heart and my mind... but something about you makes the scars on my body beautiful, the scars on my heart know how to feel, and the scars on my mind to realize that you actually care, that you actually wanna stay.
There is something about you I long for; I long for your touch, your kisses, your cuddles; I long for your sweet scent, your amazing body, your out-of-this-world personality. I long for everything about you.
My feelings are stereotypical: I see you, or hear your voice and my stomach fills with the butterflies, I look at your smile and it makes me smiles, wanting to talk all the time.
But honestly, I'm scared. So much has gone wrong, that when something goes right, it's weird. I don't want you to leave, but I'm scared you will. Because that's how it always has worked for me: you either get bored, die, leave without question, or die. I'm scared that to much to deal with, but I promise I working on it.
You're my drug.
It's so weird how strong these feelings are even though it's only been a short amount of time.
The L word on my mind 24/7. That word terrifies me.
You're my addiction.
It takes a lot for me to let people actually be apart my life, but the first time we talked... your presence was different.
I know I'm annoying, I know I have my my depressed moments, I know I'm sarcastic, I know I'm not the smartest, I know it all, but you accept it. But every second of the day I'm terrified you'll leave.
I want to be the first thing you think about in the morning, the last thing at night; your easiest hello, and your hardest goodbye.
I have something to say,
Something I've said that scares me,
I'm shaking at the thought,
Even though I've told you before,
But just know that I'm serious,
That what I'm saying is true,
This whole time..
All I've been wanting to say is
I love you...