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Unseen Future

Unseen Future

How did my 2016 ended? It ended with a heartbreak.  As usual, I was stronger than before. I always get attracted to a guy who breaks my heart.

Every year I prayed it was a best year to come but 2016 wasn't the best year. I have more than down fall months than good months.

Life was getting good at end of October. But of course the challenge was not to give up. There will always someone screw up my peace and quiet.

I had let go of people who gives me stress but of course I can't let go of people I live with, there is yet a lesson to be learned.

God only removes people in my life if no longer holds a purpose. If had learned something from the situation then, it won't repeat it. Then again it remains because people around me had not learned the lesson.

All I can do is take a deep breath and pray to help me deal with it.

As God brings me closer to his promise the difficulty becomes harder.

Some people believe life is not a puzzle to be solve but you just have to live it. For me it is, until you don't figure out the root of the problem you won't know the solution.

For an instant, I always wondered why I fall in love with a guy who hurts me in the end. The truth, I am not suppose to fall in love with him. I just need to observe him and what I learned from him. Study his character. My mistake I got too engross of knowing him and didn't see what hit me.

I discovered my talent in drawing that I never knew I had. How? Because the guy I had fell in love with was a graphics designer. The other guy was a script writer and the last guy was a musician and singer.

But I got to pull the breaks on the last guy. I won't pursue my musical talent because I don't want to work with him. God knows I forgive him but I need also to forget my feelings for him. I still see him every Sunday. We have the same Church.

I thought I am completely over him but when I saw him again walk past me, I know my feelings for him might come back.

I am guarding my heart. I have to learn that because after a heart break I am always ready to fall in love again and yet not ready get heart broken.

Just when I am about to do that God hits the breaks for me.

Okay, I am suppose to talk about men and relationship. Oh well.

What now? What will I do?