It's been three days since i've eaten,showered or really did anything. I'm lost in my own little pit of pity and sulking, but that's how I heal. I over think things, think of the worst scenario in my head then think of my problem. If my scenario is worse than my problem than it can get worse, so that means I shouldn't give up I should keep trying. But no matter what I do I can't stop thinking about everything. About Jake and Carla,my new family, My old family. For years I had a suspicion that my best friend and my best boyfriend ever are cheating on me, the multiple times I called and there was giggling in the back round and my best friend screaming. But I never really believed it until now, now I really think they are cheating on me and it's tearing me apart along with the loss of my mother and the new family thing I feel like I can't survive anymore.
"B-Brianna?" A little voice called from behind the door. I opened my mouth, then closed it again. Laying on my bed looking up at the blank ceiling," There's a lot going on right now and I-I just need my big sister please come out I need you." Sobbing started behind the door, without second thought I ran to the door and flung it open to see my little sister Lottie crying on the ground in front of my door.
"Lottie.." I gasped. I fell to my knees hugging her tight. How could I be so selfish? How could I just abandoned everyone that needed me, even if I didn't feel needed there was one little girl who needed my comfort and I failed. But I still have time to fix my failure. I picked up Lottie and put her on my messy bed, then closed the door.
"I'm in seventh grade, I shouldn't be going through this till high school right?" She looked up at me.
"Going through what?" I sat down on the bed and pulled Lottie into my lap.
"At the beginning of the year, my best friends, and my crush asked me out. Of course I said yes without thinking about her," She cried into my chest," The next day we had a sleepover and I told her- she wasn't mad and that made me extremely happy because I enjoyed being with both of them. I went to change and I guess I left the door slightly open because on Monday a naked picture of me was shoved into my locker Kyle's locker and all the perverted guy's lockers. They started hitting on me and so Kyle broke up with m-me." Lottie grabbed my t-shirt.
"I-I'm sorry." I wanted to hurt Kyle, I wanted to rip off her best friends head. I want to hang everyone that hurts my family. I don;t want to see them hurt.
"That's not it, " She continued to cry," They made a whole website based off the picture and she put fake stories about me bragging about having..........Everybody at school was sent that website, but my teachers still don't know and I didn't do any of that everybody's calling me a slut and show off but how can I show off when there's nothing to show off?"
"We're going to talk to Jay about this." I hugged Lottie tighter then loosened up as she pulled back,
"No Please no! It's too embarrassing please just let me try to solve this by myself first please don't."
I understand how she feels...When I was in eight grade my mom started cutting the outside of my wrist and making me wear tank tops so everybody thought I was attention seeking whore
"Lottie," I looked her in the eye," Don't you want this to stop? Don't you want to be happy again and have all this just, disappear? "
"Well, yes."
"Then we need to tell Jay so she can help all us okay."
"O-okay but I don't want anyone else to know except us,Jay and the principal okay? In this family i'm the strong one i'm the one who helps mom i'm the one who protects everybody when Louis is gone and if they know, then they'll know i'm not as strong as I seem and I can't help them." Lottie hugged me.
"I understand,how about you hang out in here while I take a shower okay? Here's my phone you can play Flappy Birds." I handed her my phone, sliding her off my lap. I stand up and get clothes then disappear into the shower.
~Lottie P.O.V~
I watched Bri walk into the bathroom before playing on her phone.
"Stupid bird! Learn how to fly by yourself!" I whisper yelled at the phone.
'Bing!' Brianna's phone rang.
'New Text from <3 Hubby Jake <3'
I opened the message,
"Brianna we need to talk about something...meet me at the park k? You better come and stop ignoring me or there will be consciences you hear me? Calla,Cassia and Zak R all worried about you.'
I gasped, was that a threat? Did her boyfriend just say 'or else,' to her? How does she deal with that man? I won't let her go. Let's see what he can do. I clicked the edit button and deleted the text from him. I started scrolling through more texts and more texts until I paused on one.
'Listen up bitch, you leave me again and i'll shove you in my closed for 2 weeks starving how would you like that again?'
Tears started swelling into my eyes. She went through this and a abusive mom. How did she survive?
"Hey, do you want to brush my hair?" Brianna poked her head out from the bathroom fully clothed.
"Yeah." I smiled brightly and put er phone down starting to walk to her. She handed me a brush and I started to brush her hair.
"C-can we tell her tomorrow? Someone special is coming today and I just want to forget everything."
"Sure thing princess."She yawned
