Crush (One-Shot)

Crush

I'm Jane. 13 years old. Grade 7. I have a crush named Kyle. Nagkagusto ako sa kanya noong December. He is from Davao. Nakilala ko lang siya sa isang groupchat.

Ang layo ko sa kanya. Naging close kami. Naging ultimate crush ko siya. Pagdating ko sa school siya nalang palagi kong bukang bibig (Bukambibig ata).

Minsan nag aaway kami pero nagkakabati rin kami. Nadadating sa seryosong away ang away namin. Lahat kasalanan ko.

I messed up everything. I'm so weak when it comes to war. Siya nalang palaging nananalo. But I'm so thankful to him because he always made my happy.

Sana magkita na kami. He is 14 years old. Grade 9 student. An accelerated student. Grade 8 pa sana siya but he is so genius. He is handsome. Cute. Cold sometimes. Dark Chocolate lover. Everyone calls him nerd but he is not a nerd. He is just wearing an eyeglasses. He loves book. He is talented. I already heard his voice. Angelic voice.

I felt so sorry when I made him angry. It was all my fault. But we are already friends now because of my friends. They helped me and I was very thankful for them. I love them.

I have time for him and I have time for my friends. Me and Kyle loves anime.

Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I laugh. Minsan kinikilig rin ako.

I cry because of pain. I laugh because of my happiness.

Nagustuhan niya ako pero sinayang ko. Nakapagsabi ako ng masakit sa kanya that's why he is angry. I cried for that night.

Yung mga araw na palagi nalang akong iyak ng iyak gabi gabi dahil sa nangyari.

He unfriended me. He blocked me.

I explain what happened to us to my friends.

And yeah. I was totally wrong. It's my fault. It is.

Until now, even we are not friends on facebook. We are still chatting each other. Naging makulit na siya. Sometimes I cry because I remember those memories. We are very very close to each other.

Hanggang pangarap nalang ako nito. I hope he'll trust me again.

Crush ko parin siya ngayon. I think I already have feelings for him. I don't know.

It hurts me so much but I'm always smiling. They think I don't have a lot of problems but the truth is I have too many problems.

Last night. I asked a favor to him.

Me: Psst. Favor please?

Him: Sure. What is it?

Me: I want to hear your voice. Can you send a voice message? Please..

And so on..

He gave his number to me and I dialed it to my phone. When he answered my call. I feel like the dead butterflies in my tummies are already flying. Im so happy.

Him: Hello?

Me: Hi! This is me.

And so on...

Im very very happy. He's voice is so cute and angelic. I swear. That time, i don't know what to do. Im already stuttering.

Kinikilig ako na naiiyak. Tears of joy. I already heard him singing "Say you wont let go" by James Arthur.

Im very very happy. Maybe sometimes love just ain't enough.

I think I already love him. I hope we can still be friends until we become old. I need to focus in my family, studies, friends and relatives too.

He is just my ultimate crush but why did I fall for him? He didn't catch me but it's okay. I understand him.

Hannah is the one who ruined his life. Pinaglaruan lang ni Hannah ang buhay ni Kyle noong Grade 7 pa sila. Hannah is beautiful, talented, studious, genius, etc.

Sinayang lang ni Hannah si Kyle. Pfft. But I didn't care about that Hannah.

Then guess what? Gusto niyang makipagbalikan kay Kyle? Pfft. Idiot.

She is insecure because me and Kyle are close. Oo, naging sila pero hindi alam ni Hannah ang buong pagkatao, personality, and even Kyle's birthday. Pinaglaruan lang niya.

I know about Kyle's information.

Sometimes I got jealous to the other girls. But why? Bakit ba ako nagseselos kung wala namang kami? Life sucks. I don't know what to do.

So when the stars come out at night. Am I watching the same skies? You can tell this your surprise. I won't forget you.

I won't forget him. He will never be replaced. :)

I hope he'll read this.