For The Choices We Make

'For The Choices We Make' Introduction & Warnings Page

Title: For The Choices We Make

By : AshleyMistMalichi

Rating: Adults Only

Category: Fanfiction, Series, 'The Time Of Our Lives Series,' Sequel to Just My Size Books 1 & 2

Characters: Justin Taylor, Brian Kinney, Daphne Chanders, Debbie Novotny, Michael Novotny, Emmett Honeycutt, Ted Schmidt, Marty Ryder, Lindsay Peterson, Melanie Marcus, Gus, Cynthia, *mentions of Chris Hobbs, OMC's and OFC's. Genre: AU, Drama, General/Misc. Angst/Romance, and Dark Humor 

Warnings: Strictly AU, Justin/OMC, Brian/OMC,  Brian/Justin, OMC/? OMC soon.Very OOC, and Anti-Michael, Anti-Melanie & Lindsay, with graphic language, and explicit sex in most Chapters. Drug usage, and Alcohol abuse.

Please remember, this AU Series, 

The Time Of Our Lives Series is also a sequel, 

so you need to have read: Just My Size Books 1 & 2 so this story and the ones to follow will make sense to you.'

For The Choices We Make' picks up right where Just My Size Book # 2 Chapter 9 ended. 

For any and all other warnings, please see Chapter 1. of JMS Book # 1

A/N when you see the below A/N Warning, it's HSt...(Hot Sex time)

A/N Hot sweaty Male on Male S E X...In this Chapter! If this offends you, you are at the wrong story, cause this is QAF, THE Series that was GROUNDBREAKING in Cable Television History as THE FIRST BALLS to THE WALL all out GAY sexuality, with No Apologies, NO Regrets!

*For any and ALL other warnings, and other information about this OOC/ AU/QAF Fanfiction, please see Introduction & Warnings page.*

Summary: A What IF AU Series and a sequel to JMS Books 1 & 2: After a heart-to heart with his best friend Daphne Chanders, Justin ran away to NY... Or, did he? As soon as he met up with a guy named Jaden that could of been his twin, Justin's life choices took him on a California talespin showing him another world, and the time of his life. Justin has just gotten the shock of his young life; as he and Jaden have made even more difficult choices.  

Come along with me to this fabricated peek into this world, by showing you my view of the fame, the pay and perks as well as the exposure to the loss of personal freedoms and the dangers that 'too much too fast' can bring when suddenly easy access to ANY perversion and or kink, as well as ANY drugs and ANY drink is yours for the taking.

Imagine, people of all types and sexes willing to do anything with you or to you just because of WHAT, not who you are, the real you. 

They don't see that person. 

They don't want to... Because to them, you are a mega superstar.

Everybody wants you, wants to be with you and most of all, wants to be YOU. 

All the while, more and more dangerous thrills take you down kicking and screaming onto a hellbent jagged road of your own making; dragging you deeper into an unwelcome journey that's leading you to, and leaving you with, the cold and stark reality of the severe loneliness and vulnerability fame can, and usually does cause.

The 'STAR' can be left with unresolved feelings and suddenly wondering, "Is it really me they like, or is it my wealth and my fame and the endless line of 'connections?

The 'white hot' dregs of the flash of stardom come with a 'cold side serving' of harsh reality.

A reality that with or without their clothes, an actor, porn or otherwise; and, from what I have read and have seen, and what I personally know of, they are just 1/10th shy of each other, as a porn star can become an actor, as well as an actor can become a porn star. AND? 

They can BOTH suddenly (and for whatever reasons) find themselves becoming the *silent* victims of their own fame.

Unfortunately, we, the public, adoring or otherwise, are soon left pondering as to the many 'why's,' that are all too soon forming on our lips; and in our minds as the senseless destruction of yet another STAR we had helped to build, to send off, is forever now dimmed, silenced in a frozen scream by life's cruel jaws. Forever.

We are left holding the sparkling elusive *star shine* looking back at us from a cherished autographed photo, Record, CD, or a well worn film. 

Even a favorite website no longer feels the same, because it's now missing the most important part, the *starshine*.The *light* that *spark* the very *life* that it was once all about. 

While the stark facts are all there, lined up neatly for you to learn of, now missing is the most important thing, the person.

Yet when we hear of, or read about what the *person* had done, it feels so surreal.

Because, from where we're left standing, that person, or person's had it all.

'And one word, 'why' can echo in our minds for years.

I dedicate this story in it's entirety, to those *falling stars*, be they porn or not, be they young, or old, that chose to *dim* due to reasons we will never know of, nor shall we never truly understand, in hopes that someday, their senseless self-destruction will cease to exist.

In hopes that someday, an endangered star will be helped before it's too late. 

Instead of being simply ignored when they non-verbally have asked for guidance off of any of fame's dangerous rides.

Instead of watching them self destruct, afraid for their own lively hood, or job, I pray that someone who can, will see beyond the bright light of fame; and reach out to and for the small person sadly hiding inside, wrapped up and trapped beneath the deceptive folds of fickle fortunes cloying silk.

As shooting stars, they are forever in our memories, burned into our hearts and into our minds, as their lives have touched our lives.

May their *starshine* always burn bright...

Y A

~Without further adieu, I give to you: For The Choices We Make Book #1

Disclaimer: All Characters and situations from Queer as Folk are the properties of Russell T. Davies, Ron Cowen and Daniel Lipman, (Cowlip) Showtime, and others. 

No Copyright infringement has been intended by this author AshleyMistMalichi or this website. 

This story has been invented for entertainment purposes only and has been rated; ADULT ONLY 18 and up, by the author AshleyMistMalichi, and not by any independent body.