The last thing I remember, I was driving on a rainy evening at the South Luzon Express way..then I hear loud blow of a horn and then there was this loud crashing noise and found my self looking at the raindrops in an upside down view. Horns were blowing, I heard some screeching noise inside my car as it bumoped into something concrete and I can't feel my body anymore. The last thing I think of are my family's faces...my parents and my brother. Then everything went black, for one moment I can't feel the pain in my heart. Everything just went black, but my conciousness is still fine. I hear sirens, people's voices, cars, and all the noise the world is making. Above all, I can still hear the raindrops as they harshly touch the ground.
Now I wonder, which could have been more painful. The accident I just gotten into or that moment when the person you love just throw away everything you had shared for years, I gave him my heart and he returned it to me broken and torn.
"I'm sorry Mich, I just can't do it anymore"
Was his last message to me, I thought about fixing it that I rushed to where he is only to find out that he broke up with me two days ago and been flirting with my bestfriend already. Worst? That I thought my bestfriend went to a vacation trip somewhwere only to find out that she was actually with him, my fault. I was so brave rushing to where he is with the hope of fixing everything, he is everything to me. My life, my world...my love. And now, I am all but a broken pieces of that once a whole piece of a woman who thought about only loving him. I wish to just die in here, as surely it will make big news.
Headlines: The daughter of Benjamin Borton, got into a car accident and died.
It would have been great, no more injuries to endure, no more pain, no more broken heart to mend. I really wished of it to happen, but why am I feeling like I was just locked inside a white room alone, hearing only my own thoughts? Wasn't I supposed to meet someone who's gonna tell me if I will be in hell or heaven?
There's white chair in the middle of this empty room, and no door. Then it feels like I have been here all my life, ahh. This is the worst feeling than having my heart broken, alone in such a boring room. If I am dead, I wish an angel or a messenger would just show up and tell me I am than just wait here for whatever that I don't even know. Sit, walk, lean on the wall, sit on the floor, what else? Should I just play dead in here? Am I in purgatory or something? Am I being punished? Wait why would I be punished? I guess, I have lived my life well. I have been a good daughter..well..at least I have been. A good sister, I worked hard in my office and been a good friend to a bitch who lied to me the whole time and been that martyr girlfriend thatvjerk has ever had. If there is anything I have done wrong, then can just somebody show up and tell me so I won't just sit alone in this room like Alice being lost in the wonderland.. At least Alice was lost in the wonderland while I am lost in an all white room, feeling doomed.
I wonder how long I have been here, the clock is frozen at 10:40 and I have no idea of whether it is daytime or night time, one thing I am sure of. It seems like the time I got my self in a road accident, I really think I am dead now. Like the clock is telling me that hey Michelle Borton, your life stopped at 10:40 in the evening.
There could at least be window or door that when I open or look down I can see but all white clouds or wahtever sign it is that I am already in heaven. But none of thise existed aside from this room. I lay my back flat on the floor, it's warm though. Looking at the ceiling, okay...I can only think of two people at this time. My ex boyfriend and my ex bestfriend, how can I such be a fool believing that the two of them just met coincidentally for several times? Perhaps..it's the reason why I am here, if I am not dead yet. Then might as well, I am given the chance to look back at my life and think of everything that had happened to me before the accident.
Back in there where I am alive, I was just a busy working woman, who spends time with my family at any chance I got when free, spend quality time with my ex, and been a good friend to my ex best friend. I have been there for her everytime she needed me, and all I got from her was this? I can't believe how Iblet those people fool me for so many years already, so that night I caught them wasn't exactly the only time they flirted with each other? Probably, the reason why that jerk dumped me just like that. Probably, she had given him those that I failed to give him. Well, I can't be blame for my principle in life as a woman..marriage comes first before sex. How can my bestfriend back stab me just like that? Did I do bad to her? Did I offended her or what that she went that mad? Or was it just that my ex is rushing to get laid and be laid? It is giving me a headache, how can they both of them broke my heart just like that? Now, I am here in this strange room and for goodness sake I don't know of until when I'll be locked up inside here. I close my eyes, I am sure my heart is beating fine..I can hear it, but I am feeling a little not sure of whether my body fine, cause I am pretty sure the accident did crashed my car big time. Remembering the noise, the numbness of my entire body. If I recover, probably there's a lot to do. I might have my legs cut off, or I might can't walk, or I got scars all over my body..my face. That's pretty scarey to think of, but if I really am able to go back to life. It will surely won't be easy for me, plus there's a broken heart that has to mend aside from the i juries my body could have gotten into.
As darkness took over my conciousness, I saw myself in the middle of darkness. Why all these creely thing has to happen in such a situation, I lost my conciousness, when I regained it, I was inside that all white room, and then I close my eyes to shut my crazy thoughts and now I am in all of a sudden in the middle of darkness. I was walking, just walking, and then...there was this light. A bright light, so different from the light inside that white room. I can hear some beeping sound, this room is quite different from that other room, but it has this light. Such a bright light, and that beeping sound is the only noise I can hear. At least, I was able to find a light
