heart of an introvert (sort of)

Chapter 1

2years ago.

early morning ,1st day of school. goose-bump allover . a 19 year old going to his freshmen year all off my classmate are younger than me. my insides is pumping off the charts. i get nervous to quick, even in small situations. got my new uniform. i have 1 pants and 3 polo for a duration of week studies. i came in a poor family . (i can't tell the whole story),and my aunt is paying for my tuition.

and so it was i am at school and my first weird situation happen . nearly 90% of the students are wearing civilian clothing. and right at that moment i was thinking yes if go on my 1st subject all of my classmate will think I'm a nerd. 

so one quick deep breathe i proceed to go to my lecture room and there i was insight of my nameless classmates looking at each other like who is going to be there prey at the present semester or who is going to be there "BFF's".

i walk towards the end of the hallway because our room is on the farthest side of the floor. heads nodding down both hands on pocket wearing my earbuds listening to some alternative music and as i approach the end-wall of the floor i rested my back carry my left leg put my feet backwards to the wall then i finger-comb my hair just a little bit ( i have a long hair back then like some Kpop artist have, and yes i look like one of them), and then get a quick sigh as i waited my professor so than we can go to our room and start our hellish 1st day so-so routine.

20 minutes passed then my professor came. yes and the staring contest with my nameless classmates ends. a quick call of subject code came out of my professor so that the student came to the right room. then we proceed inside. right then i know i will have to find a seat where i can make some friends. but then i go to the last line so that i can get the last seat and don't mind my other classmates. 

then the class routine start. writing my professor name on the whiteboard,giving instructions about the lectures and some university policies in which i have no doubt that i don't give a shit. and then 30 minutes flocks. we have to standup and introduce ourselves. and you guessed it right i get nervous again. 

"if it's your turn to talk please state your name,age and why you ended up taking this course" says my professor.

so at the moment the 1st student stood up . we're all looking cautiously  to him like we are his worst nightmare and i know for a certain it will be my turn to speak. so a bit of a long time passed and there's three more student before me so i collected my thoughts and get ready for my turn. my classmate talks in local language and in sometimes unstructured english.

the girl beside me tap me because i was looking at floor thinking what to say. then i stood up and look dumbfounded at everyone. 

one silent cough and a nervous smile later i say.

"Hi my name is Max, i'm 19 years old. (woah we have a older classmate. i can sense this on my other classmates), honestly speaking this isn't my first choice of what major i want. but the the one i want is closed because of many students want to take up that path. and i'm sort of a late enrolee.so that's it. "

yes i said that in a straight english. so maybe my classmates would probably think that i'm a nerdy one. not mentioning all the shit things i love to do.

so the 1st class ended and i have a 2hours vacant.. i don't know what will i do. 2 hours seems like forever if you dont have someone to accompany to.

so i decided i will take a roam around the campus and get familiar on the surroundings. maybe i may spot some fine looking lads.

so i walked around the campus again in my usual walking nodded arms in pocket thing.

i think i roamed about 30 minutes when i ended up in the cafeteria and i felt my stomach hurdled. so i decided to find an empty seat. i circled the area because it's about populated.