my family is so judgmental and rude to me
like i don't understand
my older sister always makes fun of how i never eat or eat too much
and im always like "ill just starve myself then"
and my parents alway tell me to not joke abt that but like
if u keep making those jokes then that's what ill do
not even joking on that one
and when i was really young i always wanted to run away but i never did
but lately
i have really been considering it
and that is such a horrible thing but i can't do this anymore
one day im going to run away, and if i come back ill say this
"i left bc ur horrible people. i can't be here anymore. you worry abt the smallest things and get but hurt so easily
i can't even be on the internet without having anxiety bc of you."
im sorry but if youre gonna be such horrible people to me, i don't want to be around u
and honestly im sitting here typing this and all i wanna do is tell them abt all my internet friends
abt the scars that i put on my arms
and abt how i tried to commit suicide twice after you told me not to.
i wanna tell them how i have a best friend that lives so close and has helped me feel okay and not want to die anymore
but i couldn't meet her bc of you
i just
i hate my life
