Dear Future Self,
Don't tell everyone you're okay
Don't tell them you just needed time to breathe
When they ask what's going one
Don't tell them nothing
It's just your brain
It's been driving you insane
All you wanted to do
Was stay at home
You were sick
So sick of the world
People weren't mean to you
But, you hated seeing people being mean to others
And it sucked when you wanted yo change the world
But you couldn't because you're just one person
You wanted to save everyone
And sometimes, you'd feel all the universities positivities
Flow into you, and you handed it out to everyone else
But, you didn't keep any for yourself
You should've
But you'd rather save others than yourself
You wished your brain would stop
Making you want to hurt yourself
You tried so hard and it sucked because
Even though you were trying to be a good person
And kill people with kindness
Even if you wanted everyone to be happy
You wanted it so much that you forgot about yourself
The best relationship you could ever have was with yourself
But you were still working on that
You tried so hard, but something was triggering you
You didn't know what it was, but you just felt that you didn't matter
It didn't matter if you were here or not
The sun will continue to shine
The grass will grow
The birds will sing
People would fall in love
The world would continue in its cycle
You'd just be another person in history
That no one would remember
You could never sleep properly
Because who could sleep when your brain is constantly on self-destruct
Dear Future Self,
For once, stop hoping everyone has a good day
Stop lying to yourself when you say you'll be fine
Because you're a fighter
I never want to feel this way again
Don't beat yourself up
Don't hate yourself
Keep yourself together
Keep yourself alive
Do whatever you can
Do whatever the hell it takes
To stay alive
