The Way It Should End

Intro

I tightened my grip on the rope in my hand, as blood dripped down my pale arm. I turned and stared down at the sparkling water below the bridge. Tears started to slowly stream down my face. I let them glide down my cheeks and drip onto my chest, feeling the warmth they gave me while they flowed. I then wiped them quickly off my chest and decided it was time.

I reached inside my hoodie I'd thrown on after the fight I had tonight. I couldn't do this anymore. I got tired of all the crap I had to go through, and after the fight tonight I waited for him to pass out to leave. He wasn't a good person and I had to leave him sooner or later like I did my family. Otherwise he would keep hurting me. And if I didn't do this tonight he would find me and I would wind up dead anyways. But I was finally gone and done with his shit.

I pulled out my phone from my hoodie pocket, feeling the softness inside of it for a moment. Finally I turned on my phone and looked for any missed messages and calls. All I saw were a few random emails. Looks like no one's going to miss me, I thought to myself. I already knew I wouldn't be missed because of the fact that I didn't even have any friends.

I used to be an annoying, enthusiastic person, then life happened. Life. I got depressed and life always got worse. Always crying at the movies with the happy ending because I knew happy endings weren't real for me. Cinderella didn't even have a bad life in the beginning, cleaning a lot all day and getting called names and made fun of doesn't seem all that bad if you knew my story.

In other words I had a kind of crappy life, but I'm not complaining because I know someone has it worse. But for me this is enough, and, that's why I'm here.

Suddenly I jumped out of my thoughts and reached for the railing on the bridge. Slowly I pulled my weight over to the other side of the railing only leaving a few inches for my feet. I quickly bettered my leverage and bent down to tie the rope on any part of the railing.

Once I got the rope perfectly tied, or close enough to perfect, I stood for a moment and pulled myself to sit on the railing to sit for a minute before it was time. I took a deep breath, feeling the cold air fill my lungs, while I tilted my head to stare up at the moon.

There was a full moon tonight and it was beautiful sitting there along with the stars. Slowly,I looked down to take in my surroundings one last time. It's always been beautiful here, especially at nights like tonight, with the snow sparkling against the light from the moon and stars.

I knew I was going to miss this if that was even possible being gone. I was never quite sure what I believed about death. Was reincarnation real? Or was there just a black abyss of nothingness? Was heaven and hell actually a thing or just a reinsurance?

I popped out of my thoughts feeling the cold breeze lightly brush my soft skin for the last time. I pulled myself onto the side of the railing with the rope and pulled myself onto the rope holding on only with my hands. I slowly lowed my head into the rope feeling a cold breeze brush on my falling on my tears. Then I let the rope go and let my head violently jerk onto the rope.

I stayed there for what felt like forever until suddenly the rope just disappeared from under my neck and I felt myself falling to the cool water. The air rushing past me until I felt the freezing water against my body. I soon started shivering, about to start swimming up until I felt like I should just let myself like this. Freezing yet relaxed in the water feeling a weight off my shoulders

My eyes started drifting and I felt my life being slowly drained from me. Some moments later there was nothing.