He was always there but I didn't know it

I'm the new priest????

" Will I just give you my answer I want to live and I'm not going there if that path does existed."  

" You so clueless like now you know that, I don’t get it why you so dumb and get smart when ever you wanted it. This situation you are an are super dangerous but you don’t get a clue what I'm talking about, why are you the only granddaughter that I have is so special is so dumb." 

" Is that suppose to be a joke because it is than it not funny, I'm sorry if I'm so stupid and dumb but this is who I am and I like it that way. If you don’t want me than you can just send me away." 

When I said that I make her mad, she walked toward me and slap me. It hurt very bad why does she have to slap me now I mean she never does this to me before. I just saying what in my mind, she acted like I'm so stupid. I mean I might be lazy, stupid, dumb and eat all the time with out stopping sometime but that just me I like who I am. No mater what they said about me I wont change at all. 

"What did you do that for?" I asked her as my tear falling down my chick 

" How dare you talk like that, even though I said you dumb and stupid that doesn’t mean I don’t want you. If we don’t want you than you wouldn’t be here would you, if you ever think like that ever again you going to be in big trouble  that." she was shacking when she talk to me, she had never get stop looking at her hand. She feel regretful for hitting but I'm just okay with that for now. I guess I'm at fault too for saying thing like that to her.  

"I'm sorry grandma I just thought that you don’t like me because I'm so dumb and not smart like my family and you. I thought that maybe, if I'm not getting any smarter you might not want me anymore I'm so sorry grandma." 

I'm crying so hard right now, first I cry because I feel regretful for saying that to my grandma and somehow I think of Tomoseran death than I cry even harder. Sometime I thought that I can live without him but I some how hated it, me alive and him dead I don’t like that feeling I always feel regret about it. I think it was my fault I never blame on who ever hit him with that car and run away it was all my fault because of this stupid curse. If it wasn’t for me he might still be alive right now. My grandma walked toward me to comfort me, I'm glad that I'm with her right now. 

" Grandma, something just pop up, um at the other end of the path is um is Tomoseran going to be there?" I asked her, I don’t know why I asked her that, I mean he is dead why would he still wondering around here he would be crossing to other side so that he would be peaceful and there no one to bother him at all. But some how I felt like he is still here somewhere, I just a feeling I still hasn’t know yet. 

" Now you on track, that right. She know that if something happen to him you would be there to help him no matter what the cost that why she did that." 

 " Wait grandma are you telling me that she the one who an a car accident."  

" Yes that right, she possess someone so that why no one found the person who did it." 

" But why would she do that, I mean what do she need from me." 

" Like I told you.... you the next generation priest. She going to possessed you when ever she want but she know that she get to have something you really want so that you would agree to it." 

" But grandma that not faire, why would she do that to him. If you want to posses me just do it why can't she just come and possessed me like every other ghost does." 

" That because you to powerful for her to do that, she have to have your permission first to do that and when she does she going to take all of your energy." 

 " It doesn’t matter what happen to me, I just want Tomoseran to come back and that is it grandma. He didn’t do anything wrong grandma, why does she have to involve him if she wanted my body."