I know you can’t see it my way
At least not yet
But how can I sit here and watch you die before me
Hear you speak violent words
See the pure hatred in your eyes?
I feel the deep sting in my heart
You’re really done with this life
And I can’t let you be
I won’t let you be done
A dagger shoots through my abdomen
I should know better than to try to eat
While you starve on the other side of a telephone line
The product of a harsh self-image
A shot to my crowded head
I realize there is nothing I can do to change your thoughts
But there is something I can do to change your actions
It may cost me everything I know
One slip of the tongue, and it’s over
And the tears come spilling out all at once
A waterfall, crashing from tired eyes
I’ll never forget her voice when she heard me
Panic
Anger
Sadness
Betrayal
Relief
And the word “hero”
As if I’m a strong man in a red cape
When I’m just a girl
In the wrong place at the wrong time
Or the right place at the right time
I’m no superhero
I hardly feel super when I hear your ringtone
And I read through tear filled eyes
The inevitable words that I know all too well
The words in my head as I cry myself to sleep
“I hate you”
