I admit – it hurt.
It hurt when you suddenly stopped messaging.
It hurt when I saw you with somebody else.
It hurt when I read our old conversations.
It hurt when I'd realized you didn't even care.
It hurt when I'd recall the hurtful words you let out.
And it hurt when you easily fell out of love from me.
It hurt, I admit.
I think it hurt more when I admitted to myself that you never really needed me in your life – that I was just somebody who you'd talk to, but never really mattered. It sucked, really. To think I believed that I was your world. But no, that wasn't the case. You were my world, but I was not yours. You had my heart, but I did not have yours. You were my everything, but I seemed to be anything but that. I was replaceable. I was unimportant. I was nothing. And being nothing hurt like hell.
I don't know if you've already felt that kind of pain, but I hope you never do (or never will again in case you have). I hope you don't experience the instance where in you get yourself depressed, skip meals, and just want everything to end. I hope you don't reach the point where in your heart betrays you and you breakdown. I hope you don't fall for somebody who can't seem to appreciate what you have to offer. I hope you don't end up giving everything you have to a person who's blinded by [insignificant] priorities. I hope you find somebody worth it. Somebody worthy of you and somebody who knows your worth.
Despite the fact that it hurt when you blocked me; despite the fact that it hurt when you chose her over me; despite the fact that it hurt when I noticed we were falling apart and I was the only one trying; despite all that, I want you to know that I'm always here for you and that I want you to be happy.
Really – despite everything, I still wish the best for you. Not only because I care, but because you're one of the most important people in my life and I love you.
Hopefully you don't waste your time and tears on a person who cannot see your true beauty and value. Hopefully, instead, you make an effort to improve yourself and be happy. Hopefully you're not as stupid as I was before, because if you were, you'd just be in constant pain with a heavy heart. Hopefully you have faith. Hopefully you're not pessimistic. Hopefully, just hopefully, you have enough courage to get through one of the darkest times in your life and move on. Hopefully you're ready for change, because nothing is permanent in this world. Nothing stays the same over time. Just keep you head up and show the world what you're made of. And might as well show some people what they lost.
Oh and remember that the pain that you've been feeling, can't compare to the joy that's coming (as said in Romans 8:18).
