So hi.....long time no see. I know I've been getting your hopes up every time I go in to edit because it says that I've updated but i haven't. But I will have you guys know that i have copied what I wrote on here and other sheets of paper into one large notebook to help me keep track of what I've written and where to leave off. So without further a due after a very long wait chapter three. And it is a long chapter so don't you worry.
P.S. I felt really bad for not posting for so long, oh and btw happy belated holidays and a happy new year.
-Swan
Emma's P.O.V
I woke up the next morning with a stiff neck and a sore back. 'Why am I more sore than usual?' When I fully opened my eyes, I realized that I was still against the front door and started to cry again as the memories of last night were flooding my mind.
'Oh god that actually happened? I thought it was just a dream. Oh god I screamed at Regina!!! Why...Why did I scream at her? God Emma you need to get yourself toge-WAIT! Why am I scolding myself? She deserved it after what she put me through. God Emma what is happening to you? You need to go for a run, that will help sort your mind for the day. Plus you're still on the floor by the door.'
Once I got up, I went upstairs to my bedroom and into the ensuite bathroom, I walked to the sink looking into the mirror.
"Jesus Emma you look like shit."
When I looked in the mirror, I had dry mascara and eyeliner that must have ran down my face when I was crying last night. After I washed my face, I brushed my teeth and my hair into a ponytail, then went over to my closet. I grabbed my Nike free runs and my matching Calvin Klein sports bra and leggings and changed into them. Once I was finished I grabbed a bottle of water, my keys, and then my phone. Plugging in my earbuds, I walked out the front door. before I started my run I went into my music on my phone. I hit play on 'All I have' by NF, then started my usual run through the woods and onto the beach
All I ever wanted was somebody to hear me
And all I ever wanted was somebody to feel me
And everybody wanna tell me that I'm out of my head
When I'm on the mic that's fine but that don't scare me
It's been a long time but I'm back now
Rap pow welcome to the rap house
Rap pow will live till I pass out blackout blackout
Everybody keep on wondering if I still rap now
Are you serious, anybody out there hearing this?
Yo I came in the game as a lyricist
And I'ma leave like that, period
You sniff lines, I write lines, you've now entered in my mind
And you better get ready cause you might find
I'm from a different place and my kind
It's a little bit different than yours is
Quit snoring hip hop isn't dead
It's just been in mourning from the moment I quit recording
Quick, record this
Listen I'm warming up and you're misinformed if
You think that I'm slipping up, this ain't sick enough, then I'll skip the chorus
I've been here ain't nobody heard of me?
Yeah I'ma turn this beat to a murder scene
I don't live for the world
I live for the King, I live for the King, focus
Wrote this with emotion
It's hard to get a break when the door's ain't open
It's hard to get a shot when the gun ain't loaded
And it's hard to make a living when nobody wanna notice. Hold it
What am I insane maybe, plain crazy
You put me in a room with a mic you will not restrain me
You do what you wanted but you can't contain me
Lazy is not a character trait of mine, don't wait in line
This is the current condition of my state of mindDon't tell me that this isn't real
Don't tell me this ain't how I feel
This is all I have all I haveAll I ever wanted was somebody to get this
All I ever wanted was somebody to play this
Take my song, put it on their playlist and get goosebumps every time they play it, rate us
If that's my calling or not Father, maybe I should just not bother
Go back to that nine to five but I am not a quitter so quit that
I never been a killer but I guarantee I kill tracks
Put them in a coffin, lost in, rip that
Trying to make an impact in rap, is that insane?
Well, I guess so
Rap though, better give me that pencil
And you ain't ever gonna make it, it's all mental
I am in a place where I can't let go ah!
I still work a job and do this
And y'all know what's stupid?
I thought all you had to do was get a record deal and yo things start moving
But that's not the case because most of the times the artists you hear
You keep on thinking that artist is new but that artist has probably been at it for years
Yeah, in the back of my mind thinking
Am I wasting my time dreaming
And I ain't got no money in my wallet but
I guarantee there ain't no way that I am gonna leave this
I need this I swear to y'all I need this
And this hip-hop's in my veins if you cut me I'ma bleed it
And yo. What you think I write write raps for no reason, no
Take my pain and I put em in a song ever since them pills they took my mom
I've been a different person, don't try to predict my verses
What you're hearing now is me whether I'm in front or behind that curtain
I stand behind these words I'm a Christian but I'm not perfect
Don't tell me to calm down I'm calm now, listen I'm just working
Yeah it might take a minute to get it but once you get it everything will be crystal clear
I don't think they see my vision here I don't think they see my vision here!Don't tell me that this isn't real
Don't tell me this ain't how I feel
This is all I have. All I have
Don't tell me that this isn't real
Don't tell me this ain't how I feel
This is all I have. All I have
Don't tell me that this isn't real
Don't tell me this ain't how I feel
This is all I have. All I have
All I haveDon't tell me that this isn't real (this isn't real, this isn't real)
This is all that I have, this is all that I have
I had gotten halfway through my run when I reached the beach. I decided to stop for a few minutes just to catch my breath. When I looked up and along the beach as I started walking, I had noticed two people on the beach cuddled together. It wasn't until I had was closer did I realized who they were but you must have heard someone approaching because you had looked up and whispered " Emma?" Before standing up bringing Zelena up with you. The sudden urge to run and cry came to mind but I tried to not show it on my face but I managed to croak out "Regina? Zelena? What are you guys doing out here so early?" I felt Regina's eyes roving over my sweaty exposed stomach and arms, when I started to feel and nervous self-conscious I crossed my arms over my stomach. I was still looking between the two mainly Regina who was staring right back at me waiting for a response when Regina revealed "We've been here since last night after....what uh....happened between us."
She said while gesturing between the two of us before adding "Well at first it was just me by myself and then a few hours later... Zelena came looking for me knowing this is where I go when I'm...well upset.....a-and n-needing to clear my head." I just kept staring at Regina, starting to feel angry and upset thinking 'Why would she be upset?' Zelena spoke up "Why don't I give you guys a few minutes?" Regina nodded and I held my gaze before wondering out loud this time still becoming more upset "Why would you be the one upset when your the one that broke my heart?!?" I didn't realize I was yelling until I saw the tears forming in her eyes. Regina cried almost sobbed out "Yes okay yes, I realized the way I reacted was wrong but it's because I needed to to sort out my own feelings for you. A-and I-I had finally came to the connection that I love you back and last night when you screamed at me and slammed the door in my face I realized why it upset me so much and then I was even more upset when I thought that I had lost my chance..b-because of the way I had initially reacted. So yes Ms. Swan....Emma I love you..."
