If you are bleeding I can help stop the flow

Chapter 4

AMYS POV

I peaked through my half opened eyelids and tried to breathe through the pain. The agony I could feel assaulting my senses wasn't completely physical. The more I thought about it, the harder I had to try to keep swallowing the bile that rose in my throat.

Just before I could get too worked up I headed off to the shower trying desperately to block the monstrosities that were my memories. I glanced down and saw hand prints, dotted across my torso, starting at my throat and leading all the way down to my thighs. Tell tale signs of what my mind had tried to  black out. Wincing, I forced myself out of the shower, pretending I hadn't seen the blood tainting the water as it ran down my legs and into the plug hole. The main extent of my injuries were easily hidden beneath my clothes, thankfully the visable ones were merely cuts and bruises.
With a quick glance behind me I got dressed and left for school, grabbing an apple to eat on the way. Pondering the possibility of a normal life. And how much money I had stashed under my floor boards.
Sighing heavily, and biting back tears I walked into tutor with a smile on my face, I made it without touching my shard of glass and without seeing Him.

Then without so much as a warning, my thoughts returned to last night.
Fucking slut you deserve it. You deserved every second of it.

Just as I felt my face blanch, my throat began constricting halting any chance I had to breathe, I bumped -literally- into Kier.

KIERS POV

I got up really early in order to get to school a little bit earlier than normal so I could chat to Amy some more. But I couldn't find her anywhere, then I realised she was probably in her tutor room, which she told me was 3h so I decided to make my way over and see if I could catch her before school.

I was just rounding the corner to the main door to building h when I bumped into Amy who was as white as a ghost. she looked like she was struggling to breathe, I spotted the signs immediately, she was in shock and was about to lapse into a panic attack.

"Amy? Can you hear me? If you can I want you to look me in the eyes and concentrate on my voice, okay? Can you do that for me?"

She looked into my eyes, I noticed one was bruised underneath her eye make up, before I could allow myself to get distracted by this, I safely stored it away for future use, I led her into a deserted classroom and sat her down with her back against the wall.

"Amy, I need you to breathe in and out in time with me. ready?"

I then went on to breathe in and out in an exaggerated fashion, and after about two minutes of silence with just us inhaling and exhaling: Amy's returned to normal and she broke down into tears in my arms.

What could have possibly happened to her to make her react like this? The bell for first period went, but neither of us moved, I couldn't give a damn about school, never have and never will; especially when someone as awesome as Amy was in tears in my arms. Thankfully this classroom wasn't being used for first period, after sitting still for around ten minutes, amy began leaning away from me, but I wasn't letting that happen, so I pulled her into my lap and wrapped my arms -gently- around her waist: remembering what Megan had said, I glanced down at both of her wrists which were in her lap and I saw that one of the sleeves of her blazer had ridden up, and I saw a flash of white material, a bandage?

I decided to respect her privacy and not question her about it especially, as she might ask to see my wrist.

Slowly Amy raised her head up and made eye contact with me, all of her make up had smudged down to her chin and she had angrily wiped at it with a tissue she had in her pocket. I stifled a gasp of horror after I saw the patterns of new and old injuries scattered all over her face. I focused on her and made eye contact with her and said "Hey are you okay?" I could hear the deeper meaning in my voice, I'm sure Amy could too.

"No, but I'm going to put on a big smile and say yes." Horror flashed in her eyes as she caught sight of her reflection in the window above my head. She looked at me with fear in her eyes and said "I fell down the stairs."

I knew this was a lie, but the pleading look in her eyes made me say "I don't believe that, but I'm going to put on a big smile and pretend to believe you. But seriously I'm here if you need to talk, or if you need help with your maths or if you ever feel like talking about what just happened."

The fear seemed to escalate then she smiled as she realised I had mirrored her words, and then she said "Can we just stay here for a little bit longer?"

I didn't answer I just held her closer to me.

AMYS POV

I realised I hadn't ever been held before and it felt good. I was doing my best to not freak out and run home, but Kiers presence just seemed to calm me down.

Kier nudged me very gently, "Do you want to go home?" I froze and my heart stopped, Kier must have noticed because he hastily added "Or we can go to mine if you want to? We can watch a movie, I'll even let you pick."

I really wanted to get out of here, it was a Wednesday but we had the rest of the week off for half term then another two weeks off. So I figured I should make the most of Kier before I shut off again. "Can we go to yours please?"