Forever and always.

Fearful heaven

Hey! This is the first book I'm writing, i hope you all love the story.

Aaliyah above^
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Many people would ask themselves how do they know when their true love has entered their life, many would say that you feel a tingly feeling in your stomach then you'll know that they're the one.
I completely disagree with this, that tingly feeling in your stomach isn't love, is common sense leaving your body. Love could bring happiness, sadness and many feelings in your life but knowing how to handle them is the tricky part.
"Aaliyah!" Celina said angrily, I guess she has been calling me a numerous if times before I finally stopped daydreaming.
"You don't have to shout, I can hear you" I said while forcing a smile on my face.
"You didn't hear what I said, did you?" She asked.
"Maybe if you didn't talk about the same thing all day i would've been listening" i answered her harshly.
"You just don't understand, I've never felt like this before! He makes me do happy but I'm scared that he'll find out" she couldn't help to stop smiling while telling me this
"Of what?" I asked pretending to care.
"What I've been hiding to him" her smile fades after saying this.
"I think i should be leaving soon, you know my mum she can be really persistent sometimes and she doesn't like me being out long even if its with you" i said while i was picking my bag from the chair.
"I guess my aunty has reasons to not let you out with me for long"she quietly laughed even though it was loud enough for me to hear it.
I got up and left the restaurant we were in.

It was hard to explain, i felt so empty inside; it was always the same thing. Wake up in the morning go school, come home do some 'homework' then go back to sleep, and so on except of the weekends when i would say i had some kind of 'social life' even though most of the time i spent it with my cousin Celina. My parents had split up although they weren't divorced yet, i live with my mum.

*ping**ping* the screen of my phone turned on, i rolled over from the other side of my bed and picked up the phone, two messages from Celina.
"I need your help " "Pop up to Rykard pleasseeeee i really need your help, i need you to pretend you know that im mad at him" I rolled my eyes after reading her messages, it was always the same thing, her pretending to be mad at him, me backing her up then having to fix everything.
"Rykard" i said to him on messenger
"Hey Aaliyah" he replied just a few seconds after.
"I heard about your fight with Celina, are you alright?"i asked him.
"No, I'm tired of this she's always getting mad at me for absolutely no reason and i can't take this anymore, I'm done" he replied to my messages quite fast.
"Come on you lot can fix this, you always do" i tried to convince him.
"This is far more than that, we hardly speak anymore and...and I'm not sure about my feelings anymore" he said.
"Why's that i thought you two loved each other" i said shocked from the news.
"I need you to do me a favour" he replied a few minutes after reading my text.
"It must be a trend of something but go on" i said a bit interested on what he has to say.
"But i need you to promise me that Celina isn't going to find out about this right now" he replied.
" alright I said" i said even more interested.
"Promise" he said.
"I promise, what is it?" i asked impatiently to find out what that was about.
"I know this is going to be a lot to take in from me but i think i like you, like we've been speaking more often and my conversations with Celina are shorter everyday, I'm not asking you to feel the same way as me because that would be selfish of me but i just wanted you to know and i wanted to take it off my chest." He replied to me.
Someone please kill me now, my cousin's boyfriend has just told me that he likes him or was it my imagination?
I stared at the text for about 20 minutes, i didn't know what to say
"Its a joke right, Celina probably told you to do this because of what happened before" i finally replied to him with some emojis.
"No this is real, i think i like you" he replied to me almost instantly.
I dropped my phone and thought to myself how could he possibly like me? Has he never seem me before apart from pictures, I'm ugly and fat. I am nowhere near Celina's beauty and personality.
*ping*
"What did he say" message from Celina.
How could i possibly tell her that her 'boyfriend' likes me?