i know you, and you don't understand how or why yet. this isn't writing, simply speculation. you are complex and everlasting, like the starry night sky. i may never see the same stars i saw the day before, after all, you change like the wind. you know this, you acknowledge it.
you must be so lonely, your friends, family, relationships, they all seem to end so quickly. if they last, they change. they change because you are not who you were yesterday, you are almost a different person.
people may admire this, though most will resent you for it. they miss the you from the day before, they make you feel as though you wronged them.
its lonely being alone.
the statement itself may seem silly, juvenile even. yet you understand don't you? Surrounded by people, but never more alone. you're lost in a maze people and emotions, millions of different versions of you trying to navigate one life.
you still love, you still feel, you still act out, you still make dumb ass decisions. after all you're human. you have people around you that love you, that you love in return, but they don't know you like i do.
you're smart, smarter than you let on by far. you beautiful, inside and out, and you aren't oblivious to it. you run towards love, yet simultaneously running away from intimacy.
if i rolled up your sleeves we both know what i would find. and if anyone else looked inside your mind they would run. but i've seen you, every tiny aspect of who you are, and i'm still standing here.
but i'm here to tell you that no matter how much you struggle, how much you struggle to keep your head above the water, you can do better.
you may be unaware of the pain you inflict upon others, your sweet voice like venom. yet somehow you still draw people in. after all you can be as innocent as a child, only to party like you have no future .
and someone with so many faces, so many sides and personalities, how hard it is to let people in. but i know, oh how much i know.
after all, that's who i am.
