The End of the Affair

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Candi
He kissed me from behind , caressing my curves as only he could . Slowly gliding his soft lips across my neck & down my back. He placed his hands over my waist & spun me around . Here we are standing face to face . I slowly pull my shirt over my head , he kisses my lips.
"How did I end up here again ? " I said to myself as he laid me on the bed .
He kissed my stomach as I slightly arched my back . My skirt rises as he pulls my thong to the side , I gasp as he begins to caress my clit with his tongue .
"How did I end up here again? " I think again to myself . 
Micheal begins to undress himself & he climbs on top of me . I was so tiny compared to him . He brushed my hair out of my face as he slowly guided his dick instead of me . I moan . He pulls me closer to him as he raises my legs above my head . He stares into my eyes , as I begin to cry . He stops & says "what's wrong?" . I sat silently as he continued to penetrate me . We stare each other in the eye , mine still filled with tears .

Again I ask myself "how did I end up here again ..... with my son "
"Candi , Why you always in your feelings man ? I can't deal with all these tears & shit .. GET IT TOGETHER" Micheal yelled as he zippered his pants .
Then a knock on the door "aye man y'all done in there ? Leave my money on the dresser behind the tv ... I got other clients "
I sat up with my blanket wrapped around my body , as I watched My son leave the room .
He stopped & looked back at me & said "I'll see you Saturday candi"
Candi , Man I hated that name . It hurt my soul knowing that was the only way my son knew me . I know what your thinking ... "this chick is literally delusional for sleeping with her son" ... & you're right I am . But I can explain it all ..
You see , where I come from happy endings don't exist ! I left my hometown in Mascow, Russia when I was 15 years old . I didn't have any family or friends, & had 2.45$ to my name . But one thing for sure & 2 things for certain ... I was smart as can be & I look fine as hell . So I used it to my advantage . I took the first flight to Chicago , Illinois the summer of 96 .. where I met my first mistake Julio . Julio was a criminal , in every way possible . But he was brilliant at the same time . He ran a human trafficking business right on the outskirts of the city . When he saw my fine ass hope off the plane , he just knew I was his New cash cow ... & he was right . I was a mixed breed , half black half Russian . I had smooth light caramel skin , blue eyes , long curly dirty blonde hair . I stood 5'8" with a body outta this world . I was gymnast back at home but my breast were pretty big (34 DD) so I had to give that dream up pretty quick .

Julio runs up to me ,"excuse me , excuse me ... are you angel ? " ... I laughed simply because I couldn't understand a word he said . I didn't know a lick of English when I got to the states . I smiled & said "rabota? " with a deep Russian accent ... he smirked as if he just hit the jackpot. He grabbed my hand & said "I got the perfect job for you" ...
"Kak bac 3boyt?" He asked ... I replied "Cynthia.. Cynthia Ivanov"

He grabbed me by the hand & from that point on , my life would never be the same ..Micheal
There she was again ... just as fine as ever . Her skin smooth , Hair all messy.. "damn" I thought to myself . I started kissing her neck . Grab her by waist , & turn her towards me . I stare into her crystal blue eyes , mesmerized . She pulls her shirt above her head , I kiss her soft lips . I throw her on the bed then I begin to pleasure her between her legs . I can feel her arch her back slightly ... I quickly get naked & hop on top of her . I enter her Nirvana as she moans, gently . I brush her bangs back to stare into those crystal blue eyes I loved .
A tear falls from her eyes , they always fall from these big beautiful eyes . I feel like I've been here before , inside of her . Her walls felt so familiar to me but I could never put my finger quite on it . Then I think to myself "I gotta end this fling with Candi man , Keisha will kill me if she finds out" .. I looked back down at Candi , so much innocence . I loved her , I loved being inside her .
I finished my job & rushed to get dressed. "Candi , you're always in your feelings . Stop crying man . GET IT TOGETHER" ... then theres a knock on the door .. her boss , I hated that nigga man .. I leave her money behind the tv then rush out the room . I stop & look back at her broken soul" I'll see you Saturday Candi" ... I get home to see my pregnant wife Keisha cooking dinner . "Baby , I'm home" I yell .. I kneel down to kiss her belly with our first child still wrapped inside ... Junior