Glacial Phalanx
The hair on my head is not nearly enough to fend off these icy winds
The white of my bathroom walls become encased in ice as I gaze into the mirror,
I do not see myself anymore. All I can see is this, ship.
Turned upwards it sinks into the deep blue, slowly,
So slowly it would drive me into madness to sit here and watch it slither,
Drive me ever farther into the cold murky waters,
depraved parts of sanity, of clarity that no man has returned from.
Exasperated, I steady my breathing and brace myself for what's to come.
Clink and clank, as the ice in my water drifts along in this glass of mine.
Such short lives they live. Born by the cold, the die by it as well.
The condensation catches my eye as it slides down the cup so ever slowly as if,
As if to mock me.
Does even ice, something so inanimate and dreary know of my pain?
The air conditioner sings its monotone song as I sit here toiling away my day.
Why did they give me the space beneath it? Do they know?
Are they mocking me as well?
The limited interaction I have here is my only,
And lasting only seconds at a time to answer peculiar questions or concerns I,
I savor them so. I can feel the warmth from them.
If only I was meant to be one of them, I push the thought out of my mind as my finger taps the mouse, cold as iron. Why then, do they mock me so,
I imagine they whisper of me, from their tropical paradises while I,
I can not seem to get away from this bittersweet cold.
At the very least, the frost keeps me company. The cold keeps me warm,
I sit here now in my room, my one true solace in this blizzard.
While it may be the coldest spot of them all, I at least have one comfort in this room.
A barrier to keep any cold from coming in, it is cold enough already.
As I sit hugging my frozen knees to my chest, I look around and marvel
How amazingly cold it is in this fortress, the opening seems to have disappeared.
Perhaps it is best, I think it time to close my eyes now, and rest. For a night or forever I do not know as I place my head on my knees and close my eyes,trapped,
In this glacial phalanx of mine.
