Being Bipolar

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by LinsayCorbettHudson
by LinsayCorbettHudson
                                        
                                                  Hi my name is Linsay I was diagnosed Bipolar When I was 18, I am now 21 in a month and I'm still going through the process of getting help,I cut myself to make the pain go away I've been doing that for a few years now it's not a good thing to do but it's the only thing that would help me. I always knew there was something wrong with me it never bothered me till today.
Sometimes I just want to end my life cause it will be a lot easier for my family, But I see their faces when I cut  I would bring them a lot more pain then I do now so I try to breath.
I get sad mad angry depressed anxious I still do and always will but I'm learning to control it, I'm trying my best to be the woman I'm supposed to be like I used to be, Happy singing all the time I never used to let anything stand in my way. 
Now I just let myself get Down I've changed so much I guess I changed for the best but also for the worse, I've been used and hurt more than anything in this world I was rapped at 18 and touched by 2 different people.
I don't let those things defined me I learned to move on and keep my head high even though all those things happened to me I still smile away every day.
I want what everyone else wants a nice house a good job a few kids being healthy, But I'm not like normal people life is hard every normal things that normal people do is a lot harder for me like just getting up in the morning takes everything out of me. 
Putting on a smile is hard but I learned to smile even if it's fake, I'm always tired my mood changes  every 2 minutes I could never predict how I'm going to be but everyday I go through something weather it's good or bad. 
If  there is people on here that is bipolar and want to talk or even if ur not bipolar but ur sad don't hesitate to message me. No matter the time i love to help people I've always been like that if I could help you I will feel good to know I helped someone.
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                              here was a lot more bad in my life but I didn't want to post everything in one so follow me message me I'm here for anyone.