PruCan Oneshots

If you were here...

A/N: WARNING!!! Contains dark themes and depressing topics, If you are sensitive to such things do not read! Touches upon topics such as depression and suicide!!! Please do not attempt to follow in Canada's footsteps! This is your one and only warning!! I am not liable for your actions, it is only a story! If you have severe depression PLEASE get help ASAP!!! If you feel uncomfortable at anytime STOP READING, It won't hurt my feelings.

Canada's POV. 

June 1st

Ever Since Gil died... Disappeared... I don't know how to explain it, he's just gone. Ever Since he left I have noticed how empty my life is without him. I take care of Gilbird the best I can, but He still looks sick. I don't know what to do anymore.

June 5th

Feliciano and I have been hanging out lately, He tries to help me with day to day life, but it is getting increasingly hard. he speaks of his first love who went to war and never returned, similar to my beloved Gil, but even so it hasn't really helped. I have begun to drink at nights, but only ever a bottle, tho lately it has increased to a bottle and a half. Sometimes I see him in my dreams, he seems upset about... something.

 June 17th

Papa and his friend have been taking me out to drink at the pub, they both speak of heartache and regret when they are drunk. I enjoy their tails and add to them my own, I feel that they have become my friends. Gil has been visiting me more often, especially when I'm drunk and hungover. When he does I cry, he looks so distraught. I miss him...

July 21st

I don't know how much more i can take. Gil has stopped visiting me! No amount of maple whiskey and pancakes can get him to visit anymore. My brother is concerned about me, I see it in his eyes, but what does he know of loss? His life has been perfect! what does he know of love and loss? I would give my life to be with Gil again. And to make things worse, Gilbird died yesterday.... He didn't make it... EVERYTHING I LOVE DIES!!!

August 27th

I don't deserve to live... but I can't die... I'm so useless... Maybe if i make my wrists cry it will hurt less... Maybe if someone cared I wouldn't feel like this... I really miss Gil... He was everything to me... I visit his grave every day... His brother visited today...That was... nice? He cleaned up and made me shower... he tried taking away Gil's necklace from me... key word is tried.... What do I do now? It's almost been a month... I'm so tired...

August 30th

Gil Visited! If I cut deep enough he finds me! He cried for the first time today, when he found me. Maybe if I die too I can be with him!!

October 5th

I just woke up from a coma...Gil was there... He was mad at me.. i was admitted to a mental hospital soon after I woak... My brother found me half dead 5 days ago hugging his grave... I can't keep living like this... But I don't know how to live without him... Dear god help me....

November 30th

I was Discharged today! It still hurts to think of him... but I've been better! Last night he visited me again, He was proud of me. I am not 100% healed, but I'm doing better. It's still hard to get out of bed, but I'm slowly getting there. My family has been a huge help, so have the other countries! Maybe I can get myself to go to the christmas party happening soon.... maybe not... But you never know!