Treads // cth

Ninety-Nine

Calum Hood

6:09 am

@Calum5SOS: That's why you didn't tell me

@wannahugthemm: what?

@Calum5SOS: You never explained me why you didn't want your name or anything about you out on any social media platform

@Calum5SOS: It's because you were cyber-bullied

@wannahugthemm: uhm yes

@Calum5SOS: It doesn't happen anymore, right?

@wannahugthemm: they stopped in Nineth grade

@Calum5SOS: when did it start?

@wannahugthemm: uhmm like in Sixth grade? I don't really remember

@Calum5SOS: where they really mean to you? Or was it just like stupid comments on your pics?

@wannahugthemm: it started with stupid comments on everything I posted on facebook, but I just deleted those and ignored them.

@wannahugthemm: but then it got worse

@Calum5SOS: can you tell me?

@wannahugthemm: do you really want to know?

@Calum5SOS: yes

@wannahugthemm: I don't want you to think they were right doing that to me

@Calum5SOS: I would never think that, not about you, not about anyone

@wannahugthemm: okay

@wannahugthemm: I had a best friend back then, she was like a sister to me. I was always at her's, I basically lived at her house and we did everything together. We studied together, listened to music and watched movies together. She was the one that always laughed at my jokes and always told me I was the funniest person she knew. She was pretty popular and all the friends I had, in reality were just hers. They were my friends because she was my best friend.

@wannahugthemm: It didn't bother me that much anyway, cause I was happy when she was around. I didn't care about the others, cause if she was there with me, I had everything I needed. She made me feel confident about myself, always telling me I was beautiful the way I was, even though I always envied her body and her beauty.

@wannahugthemm: but at some point she started avoiding me. Leaving me at home alone, while she went out with her friends and her boyfriend. She still was by my side, but she was cold and distant.

@wannahugthemm: and then, in Seventh grade, someone managed to hack my facebook profile.

@Calum5SOS: oh, please don't tell me she did it

@wannahugthemm: it wasn't her, she didn't know my password or anything about my profile. One of her friend knew how to hack profiles, and someone suggested mine. She didn't say anything to stop them.

@wannahugthemm: actually, she was the one telling them what to post. Things about me that only her knew about, cause I always told her everything.

@Calum5SOS: oh my God Sara

@wannahugthemm: this is not even the worst part.

@wannahugthemm: she backed off a few months later and for a few weeks everything was back to normality. At the time I didn't know she was behind it all, so I kept being her best friend of a whole year without knowing anything

@wannahugthemm: I deleted my facebook, thinking everything would stop but they hacked my instagram and my old twitter account

@wannahugthemm: they posted horrible things and at school kids kept making comments about me, saying I was a bad person for posting and saying mean things about everyone online. They made me look like the one that was cyber-bulling when I was the victim.

@Calum5SOS: I'm so so sorry to hear that

@wannahugthemm: it all stopped when I went in high-school, but just for a few months. Nobody knew me there, cause I was in a new class, but there were people that attended my same high school that knew about it all and those were the ones to start it all again

@wannahugthemm: I deleted all my profiles during the summer, so they couldn't hack anything now, so they just kept making comments and mean post to laugh at me on the internet.

@Calum5SOS: how did it end?

@wannahugthemm: I told my mum and they called the police

@Calum5SOS: that's good to hear

@Calum5SOS: were you ... depressed?

@wannahugthemm: yes, but I didn't know. It was weird. I knew I was sad and I knew something was wrong, but I guess I was to caught-up in what was happening to stop and think about the way I really felt.

@Calum5SOS: did you ever think about ending it all?

@wannahugthemm: I did, but I never really consider the possibility to commit suicide. Yes, I was depressed, but I knew all of the pain would've stopped at some point. I just didn't know when.

@Calum5SOS: I'm proud of you

@wannahugthemm: what makes you feel proud? I just told you about the worst period of my life

@Calum5SOS: You are a very strong person and I'm proud to be your friend

@wannahugthemm: I'm not that strong. I've been at the lowest and I just didn't want to feel like that anymore.

@Calum5SOS: Were you alone?

@wannahugthemm: when?

@Calum5SOS: When you were trying to get better, where you alone?

@wannahugthemm: No

@Calum5SOS: Oh, did you already know that friend of yours? The one here on twitter?

@wannahugthemm: Noemi?

@Calum5SOS: I don't know her name, I don't know if we're talking about the same person

@wannahugthemm: @adorevcalum ?

@Calum5SOS: yes, her

@wannahugthemm: Her name is Noemi and no, I didn't know her

@Calum5SOS: Then who?

@wannahugthemm: You guys

@Calum5SOS: The band?

@wannahugthemm: yes

@Calum5SOS: oh

@wannahugthemm: when we (the fans) cry seeing you and hugging you tight we say "thank you for saving my life", we mean it

@wannahugthemm: If I had the possibility to meet any of you guys, I would thank you for taking care of me when nobody else was there to help me get back up.

@Calum5SOS: This means the world to me

@Calum5SOS: Thank you for trusting me and telling me your story

@wannahugthemm: love you

@Calum5SOS: love you too