Is that you?

My Emotions Scare Me

Is that you?
Ha, it's obviously not
It's getting worse
I see you more often
I saw you at the market the other day
You were staring at me
You tortured me
I wanted to look
I... I just couldn't
Maybe it's because even your pictures have lost their familiar sense
Maybe that's why I see you so much
Because I try to find a part of you in everyone
Because I have forgotten your uniqueness
The things only you did
The things that set you apart
It's all been forgotten
It's kind of funny
You promised I'd never forget you
You were never really the one to differ from a pathological liar
There were a lot of things you did that weren't acceptable
There were lot of things I shouldn't have forgiven
But some I did
But in the in it really never mattered
Why?
Why do you have to do this to me
You left me when there was no one else
You didn't want to hurt me right?
Or maybe you just didn't expect it to have this affect
Or maybe you never really cared
I hate you
I mourn for you everyday, when you
You were never really there
You just think you can come into my life
When there was pain
When I hated you already
And make me love you once again
And then leave for good
Forever
Forever I was weakened by guilt
I hate you
I miss you more
The person that made me feel something
The thing that made the dark light again
Are you that person?
Are you there mom ?
Is that you?