Split - TRIGGER WARNING

Split

My heart hurts in a way,
You will never come to know.
My soul is scarred,
That's how my story goes.

It started off with dark thoughts,
And some voices in my head.
Then I ripped my skin apart,
And through the lines I bled.

I covered it up with fake smiles and laughs,
Using covered up masks and broken hearts.
At 3am my heavy mind filled with fears,
And slowly my soul was torn apart.

I smiled for photos,
Smiled for friends.
Smiled for family,
Smiled 'till the end.
Outside I was smiling,
Only smiling because I'm trying,
Inside I'm dying,
And my smile's not surviving.

The lines got deeper,
And my smile got wider.
The lines got darker,
And my face got brighter.

How did this happen?
These soul destroying voices?
How did they get into my head,
Telling me to take more doses?

Used to split a wide happy grin,
But now I just split my fragile skin.
Sharp metal pierces shattered glass,
How did this all come to pass?

Now hot tears escape my eyes,
And I'm lost to the world.
Living like this has a price,
And this is how my story unfurled.
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I'm sorry about this shitty piece of writing