Polarize ( A Twenty One Pilots Fan Fiction )

.: | 1 : Tyler's Suicide | :.

| Tyler's Point Of View |

( Warning : This chapter has the use of self harm, abuse , drinking / drugs , and suicide attempts. If you get triggered easily , you can skip this chapter if you like . Stay alive frens |-/ )

I was sitting on my bed trying to catch up on some homework and study for a test when my father called for me."GET DOWN HERE YOU SHITTY EXCUSE FOR A SON!" He shouted angrily. I decided to ignore him, because it probably was for something silly like for me to give him the television remote, even though it's sitting right in front of him or to clean up something he spilled. Sometimes I question myself if they wanted a son or a free cleaning punching bag. Besides, my studies are far more important than my father's shenanigans right now.

"TYLER FUCKING ROBERT FUCKING JOSEPH GET YOUR FUCKING ASS DOWN HERE YOU DAMN DISAPPOINTMENT!" My father called out to me once again. "BLOODY HELL WHAT DID I EVER DO TO DESERVE A LAZY SON LIKE THIS!" "Coming father!" I yelled back as I closed my book and headed downstairs. "Who the fuck were you yelling at?" He yelled when I got downstairs. I didn't know what to say so I just stood there, which is always the safest thing to do in a situation like this.

"Answer me you jackass." My father than chugged down a bottle of alcohol and threw the bottle at the wall. "I was just trying to tell you that I was coming down-" "SHUT THE HELL UP!" He than interrupted me. So I quickly stopped talking. "Well?" He said five seconds later. "Are you going to tell me why were you screaming at me like you run shit around here or just stand there like the disappointment you are?" "I'm sorry father." I know I haven't done anything wrong but like I said; when he gets like this the safest thing to do is comply to his rules.

"Come here." He said sternly. "What have I done now?" I asked him. "You're failing your gym class!" "But father, it's a 99! And gym isn't even a academic class! I'm passing everything else with 100's like you wanted me to do." I told him. "I'll bring it up to a 100, I promise. Just give me a few days." "No." He said finishing up a bottle of whiskey. "I've given you far too many chances in pulling up your grades. And you've failed me and your mother like the fuck up shitbag you are. Now you must pay the price for you bad behavior."

"I 'pay the price for my bad behavior' everyday father." I don't even do anything. I do everything you ask." "Who gives a fuck?" He shouted. "Who the fucking hell asked you? I'm a damn adult and you must obey my every command! Now come the hell here!" I just stood there. Not because I was being disobedient but because I was terrified about what was about to happen. "Fine since you want to make things harder for you than they already are!" My father yelled than stood up.

He grabbed one of the empty bottles he had stashed on the ground and grabbed my arm. "This is what happens to disobedient fuck ups." His last words were before hitting me repeatedly with the bottle until it broke. Than he got more and more bottles and did the same thing. When all the bottles smashed up to the tiniest piece he threw me to the ground. "Just look at your arms!" He yelled as he began to laugh very loudly. "What are you a faggot little emo?" He said pointing at my arms laughing his butt off. "Want me to tie you a noose?"

"No father." I said softly. "I'm so sorry for being disobedient towards you and mother." Tears began to fill my eyes. "What the fuck ever." He said grabbing his car keys off the kitchen counter. "You don't mean it." I sat there on the floor shaking as he unlocked the door. "Clean up this mess and make me and your mother dinner. And it better be finished bout time I get home. Or you're gonna be grounded. For six months. Maybe a year. Maybe even two. Make yourself useful for once you fucking accident." He said throwing one last bottle at me before leaving out the door.

I waited for him to leave completely before I decided to get up. There was glass everywhere. I walked on the glass carelessly as I went up to my room and slammed the door shut. I played the most depressing music I can find on my playlist as loud as I possibly can. Than I sat at my desk and just thought about everything my father told me. I don't know why I get treated the way I do. But it really sucked and wasn't called for at all. I was making the highest A's possible and he says I'm failing and everything I do is bad.

I have two jobs and scholarships to twelve different collages. I volunteer a lot also. I help pay bills, cook five star dinners every single day, and clean everything. I even got skipped a grade. To me, that's pretty damn good. But it's kinda true and obvious that I can't do a single thing right. If my own flesh and blood says I'm doing terrible at life and should die, than it's pretty fucking obvious I should. I've been self harming for years and attempting suicide but nothing ever works.

And it's not like no one's here to stop me, so why not give suicide another attempt. No one would give a shit if I planned on taking my own life anyways. Not a damn soul. It wasn't that I don't have friends- wait, that's exactly what it is. Constant bullying to be completely exact.I've decided to write a suicide note so they'd know why I'm attempting suicide for the one millionth time, even though I'm pretty damn sure they know exactly why I'm doing this once again.

'Dear to whoever finds this note,
I've decided to attempt to take my own life once again due to constant abuse from my stupid excuse of a father. He does it every day while my mother's at work. I fucking hate that bastard. He even told me I should kill myself. So guess what I'm doing now? I'm so sorry I had to end it so soon. See you on the other side.
Sincerely,
-Tyler R. Joseph

So than I grabbed a bottle of pills and forced them down my throat. I also decided to some more 'faggot emo boy damage' to my arm. I soonly felt myself getting dizzy and fell out. It was a amazing feeling. The best one in the world. I loved my mother, just not my father. But it's not like there's nothing she could do to stop him or his behavior. Anyways, who gives a shit? Goodbye cruel world.

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[ Author's note ]

Hiya guys !!!! It's Maryanne-Alyssa ! I hope you've enjoyed my first chapter for this story ! It's kinda short and it suck but I truly hope you enjoyed ! This was kinda based on true events from my early life . I'll try my best to keep you all updated every week ! I hope you all are having a wonderful day & stay alive frens |-/

~ xoxo Maryanne-Alyssa

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