AUTUMN VERSION

"I supposed in the end, the whole of life becomes an act of letting go. But what always hurts the most is not taking a moment to say goodbye."  ~Life of Pi

Life is a never-ending cycle of goodbye's and letting go's.

"But Rhode! I love you.", I said as tears came out from my eyes.

"But I don't love you anymore!", he said in gritted teeth.

It hurts me to feel that he don't love anymore. Why? Is that really easy to dumped me like there were never an us?

"Then give me a valid reason that I should let you go." I said.

"Don't love me. Let me go. I'm not in love with you anymore. I'm falling for your bestfriend." He said in serious tone.

Now that made me cry even more. It feels like there was a knife, billions of knife piercing my heart.

"Why? Why my bestfriend?" I asked then heaved a deep sigh. Tears flowing on my cheeks. I wiped it.

"Don't you get it, Jubilee? I'm in love with your bestfriend since we were together. I pretended to be your boyfriend so that I can be close to her." He answered.

"Okay. Now I know. You can go now." I said. It hurts.

I thought that he will be the person that I could spend my forever.

I thought wrong.

Because I assume.

He turned his back on me and walk away. Leaving me a scar on my heart.

Ever since I was a kid, I really love autumn. But why is that it turns out I hated it now? Am I gullible person? Fudge. But I love Rhode so much. I don't want to let him go.

One day when me and my mom were having a movie marathon, I asked her what should I do.

"I love him." I said out of the blue.

"Then never let him go. Fight for your relationship.", she said, still looking at the tv.

"But, he hurts me.", I said. Then my tears roll down. How I hate this tears.

"Then let him go." Mom said as she glance at me with a concerned face.